DULU LAIN, SEKARANG LAIN

Dulu..
Saye salu gembire, saye lupe erti duke

Dulu..
Saye salu bye-bye org sampai saye tak pikir perasaan org lain

Dulu..
Saye tak pernah berkorban sebesar ini

Dulu..
Saye salu minum ice blended, ade ke saye kisah pasal duit

Dulu..
Saye menangis atas perkare kecil/tgk cerita sedih

Tapi sekarang semua berubah..

Sekarang..
Saye terkilan tgk org balik..now I know mcm mane rase kena bye-bye

Sekarang..
Saya banyak bersedih drpd gembire tapi saye bersyukur

Sekarang..
Nak minum cendol pun saye berhati-hati, now I know value sehelai duit/skeping syiling

Sekarang..
Saye banyak risau, saye hilang fokus..tapi saye lebih banyak berdoa

Sekarang..
Saye mudah mengalirkan air mate, saye rase saye mcm tgh pikul beban yg besar atas bahu saye

saye letih sangat..saye da lupe bile saye betul2 senyum dan happy

Bila saye jalan sorg2..saye salu ckp ngn diri sendiri.. graf saye dekat bwh ke sekarang ni..atau saye baru sedar akan situasi ini sbb saye lebih matang dari dulu n lebih ambil berat tentang perasaan org lain. Saye byk merungut dlm blog..saye kerap berdoa..saye salu harap bile bangun pagi..saye jadi mcm dulu..saye ni pengecut, saye salu nak lari dari masalah..saye akan terus berdoa agar semua menjadi normal/lebih baik. Saye tau test2 nie semua nak jadikan saye matang..Kekuatan, saye perlu2 desperately perlukan awk. sebelum itu, saye takkan putus asa. saye tau Allah da buat link yang terbaik utk hamba2-Nya. Thanks Ya Almighty. I love YOU.

WHEN THE RAIN STARTS SINGING LOUDLY TONIGHT

My heart is pounding strangely. As I inhale, the rythmic pound will pause for awhile and after a few secs The heart will pound harder. Faster than usual and the feeling is nothing great. I feel like grey clouds on top of my head  covered everythings up. hardly for me to think straight. I'm sorry for the whine. But I'm in the need of being honest. I can talk to someone...if I wanted to..but when it comes to words, I'm not good at expressing them in order to depict my feelings. Cuz when I write, I feel calm. More calm. I speak too fast, I speak and I don't think. feel stupified. Tonight, I can feel the wind blows gracefully through my face, the mixture of the tears and the wind generate quite a few feelings.I feel relieved but lonely. I am scared but I am strong. It's courage that I'm longing for. 

THIS IS NOT A HOLIDAY---->YET

Dear 27th,
I feel so demotivated..I thought today I wanna continue my thesis, But I still feel tired and I keep worrying about it..it bothers me a lot. I got a headache too, I wish mama were here..sounds like a baby but I just need my confidante so bad right now. Motivation please come back. strenght please don't go. This is the time when I need both of you the most! but headache..u can go away. don't force me to ask panadol to do so ok. I didn't mean to sound so melancholic like this..gosh, bad day.. please leave me today!

*Tears are words the heart can't say*

A VERY QUICK ONE!

Okay ..I am not sure why I need to update this blog everyday..ok I will tell why but tomorrow.. instead of to kill excess time, I got another more relevant and defensive points. teehee :P yeah right, quick one konon.. 

*ahem* actually I ll be having my final paper tomorrow aka the very2 last one cuz this is my final sem at UKM =( sadness! move move..

okay, im taking a break for awhile as I feel tired  baca factual thingy, boring!mcm nak give up..but ragu2 esok whether saye akan dapat jwb dgn hati sronok ke hati sedih. saye x nak dan x suke yg kedua tu! I once terbaca one article about the happiest citizen in the world. guess negara mana?  ok aku je la jwb.. Denmark2! why this nordic country is at no 1.. why?? simple..because they live their life with less-expectation. So esok saye nak aplikasi dlm exam. less expectation leads to a better day and happy me(al) !! yes!

Btw saye tgh baca about crisis ekonomi..best x?? mestilah best cume boring je..hurff! extra tips- nak cepat ingt kan korg makan buah kering yang manis aka kismis, kurma, prun etc. selain good for brain, its good for health and body kerana ia akan reduce radical bebas dlm badan anda. radical bebas tu apa..google la ye..saye nak hapal faktor2 jap..tata! Assalamualaikum. have a nice monday everyone!

NOW I KNOW WHY RIHANNA MADE THAT RUDE BOY SONG

Today's entry is kinda personal sbb I'm gonna voice out my opinion (again). As a precaution do not read for those who cannot handle confrontation or may be allergic to it. Cuz it may contains..sarcasm and anything related to that.  

Ahad pagi lagi sedap nak membebel. gimme a chance ok..blame the exams! I got so stressed out :P Inspirations/the eagerness to write this appeared just right after I reached my room after food-hunting. This is true story anyway. lupe nak mention. ok start!I get so pissed-off dgn some people who got no manners towards org tua. aku allergic dgn2 bnde2 berkaitan dgn respect nie. I don't know who is this guy and which planet he came from.. But I feel like I wanna smash his face with nasi briyani..bagi pedih mate die!he's not supposed to talk rudely dengan org tua tu..sbb die muda..sangat! I thought at first he was sleepy because it was early in the morning right. Then this org tua asked for (something) cannot mention..kang org rude tu dapat dikesan oleh org2 UKM. pastu badi dtg kat aku. tak mahu! and then he answered mcm nak tanak senang cta ala2 nak mati. what a turn off!

 I was there to observe the  *soap opera* cuz I duwana accuse someone tanpa asas..then yg made me terkilan, came la this one guy with a suit, looks like somebody's coming! (maybe dlm hati laki rude tu jerit mcm nie) and maybe dia tu lecturer ke dato or tan sri I dun give a **** , tibe2! boleh jadi soft spoken ala2 tone ckp nak ayat awek. I was like..hey, *whatthefishcrap* discriminate and hypocryte btol! and the uncle tua tadi was maybe a gardener or something.. Mcm nak nangis cuz mase abg rude tu ckp kasaq2 kat dia, muka dia berubah expression. I can't tell whether he was sad or terkjot.. but maybe both!I hope Malaysian baik yang lain wont do this no morale thingy. Nampak sgt uncivilised ok. imagine if this happen to your datuk or pacik awk yang atas 50 tahun.. U all tahu kan, mereka ni da masuk golongan emas and extra-sensitive,please..do respect. They'll pray something good for you in return.

Sekadar renungan-Bhs kita suka label org ikot pangkat..macam kalau org tu datuk or kaya2 skit mula lah panggil beliau ke or (u-know-what-i-bet) and bla2, mcm beliau mula menjadi kaya seawal umur 22 tahun..tp kalau timur tengah mcm Jepun or Korea or aku tak tau la korg bg suggestion.. no discrimination (correct me if im wrong) diorg label manusia ikot senioriti..kalau org tua penggunaan bhs dia lebih sopan dan santun.haa..mcm tu! I think thats why some of our people still hold that narrow perspective. hey, x global and x cool ok! til then..Do respect, don't discriminate, be curteous!

Ell-Ow-Vee-Ee,

Syifa' U. aziz

and thats how u pronouce love =)

TOO MANY WHY SYIFA..TOO MANY

When mind, strenght and heart are not together,

One's body will perished by emotion,

Why cannot I be positive,

Why my body ain't listen to my sanity,

Why can't I fake my optimism,

To continue my patience and perseverence,

Why am I here writing this,

Why can't I control me,

Why all of sudden I feel weak,

To be honest, will I ever be able to discover the truth, 

Or there's no truth,

Life can you please stop the riddles for awhile,

Cuz I am a bit fragile today,

so I cannot guess the answer properly,

Bonda, your anakanda needs you now,

There's no place I could go or turn to here..this is so torturing,

Sanity versus emotions,

Sanity please ask emotions to leave me,

cuz you aren't the citizen of my kingdom,

I'd be relieve if you leave,

So don't tell me the vice versa

I cannot do this anymore

ADA APA PADA BEG

Assalamualaikum and very good afternoon bro, sister, macik etc hope korang sume in a good shape and condition.kalau x sile refer post kat bwh nie. btw! (excitedkan sikit bunyik) I got a tag from cik siamang Hudhud untuk buat satu activity yg bertajuk..yaaa yaa..temen da mention kat ateh tu..

So here we go! start! 10 mins dari skang!(susunan terpenting ke yang kurang penting okaay) and terangkan sikit nape benda2 tu mesti ada dalam bilik engkorang..hoho..!

so kte ice breaking dulu-->

hello, saya beg syifa'..name saye blackie! name awk?

kamilah peneraju-peneraju blackiee!

purse adelah ketue! paling wajib ade.sbb ade duit, ID,kad kolej,matrik,ATM, gambar piu-piu ngn adek nad ,resit yg x berguna dan mcm2 lagi. I can't imagine my day without u reddie!

payung no 2. (kalau kat ukm) sbb I dun have a car. I need to walk. kang ujan kang, xpasal i mandi free..x kuase mak.i love u payung!

haa! org lain pki make up, die pun nak make up. hoho. ni adelah top 3 brg mmg kne ade. pencil eyeliner,lipgloss and mascara. dorg mcm adek beradik da.honestly jgn tnye saye pki eyeliner mase tdoq ke..it hurts la weh! aku tau aku x pndai pki and salu messy..huhu..blame the perspiration ok?

peh tu yg pnting sgt sbnrynye kunci ni ha..ko tade kunci aku x boleh masuk bilik..ape2 pun ure the best! i promise x kan lupe bwk ko lagik 

kemudian2, haa..ni name die live! saye pki nie kalau saye x mandi or rase bufusukfuk..teehee..penting beb!thanks sbb x pernah gagal menyelamatkan saye! muacks!

saye nie seorg yang rabun dan x sedar diri.why i say like that..ya ya! saye x suke pki neither spec nor lens. sbb humm..spec saye besaq and x tukaq2 since matrix and so out of trend peh tu, lens..saye pki once dan decide.tamo pki da. ever! maybe..tooot and saye bwk sunnies juge..sbb saye rabun dan silau!

saye salu naik KTM kalau nak balik or pegi mid. sbb tu saye perlukan ini (rujuk kat bwh) kalau boring saye dgr..x boring pun donga jugak.sbb tunggu sorg2 kadang2 x tau nak wat ape..lagi satu nak mengelakkan mate saye tak tentu arah pndang org.hish!i love u my gedik! (gajet snrnye)

Tips of the day! saye ni pengantuk dlm kelas dan seorg yang suke mengunyah.. saye akan mkn bubble gum or ape gum la..x kisah asal ko halal je. sbb mkn gule x longlasting..kjap da masuk perot. saye boleh mengunyah 2 jam okie. smpi loya aku dibuat ko..but on top of all, ure my hero!

okie ini da masuk brg saye jrg bwk..tp terbwk..iaitu incik kamera dan incik compact powder. saye x suke pki compact sbb muke saye ade pore besau2.. so nati die masuk dalam pore tersebut and akan timbul masalah PIGmentasi kulit. xsronok kan..i will use it kalau ada event penting

I didn't mention cellphone did i?? kan.. sbb saye letak dlm poket. (ok x lawak) proceed..

dan kemudian arahan terakhir permainan ini ialah..tag kawan awk seramai 5 org (tp saya nak tag lebey kalau boleh sume org) ... lai lai leng lui!

• felly
• loli
• anne
• lily
• mime
• qyqy
• and sape2 nak buat, buat ye! sorry saye explain mende ni pjg sgt..aku tgk pun boring..apetah lagi enkorang..mahap la ye

p.s-buat tau kalau korg da abis exam nati! and kalau boring cam aku nie haa..alohmoraaaa!! bye!

MOOD EXHAUSTED

Dear blog, I can't study anymore.. I'm so physically and mentally exhausted.

2 chapters more to go :( I cannot push myself any longer

I supposedly getting myself ready for bed

Tomorrow.. 830 am I ll face another paper entitled "Isu-Isu Ekonomi"

You are.. as interesting as my 1st attendance to the class

But I'm sorry..my willpower has reach its limit. 

I need to close you Miss Buku.

Dear myself, I'm sorry.. I may let you down esok. 

Ya Almighty, please help me endure tomorrow smoothly and please lend me an abundant of energy so I could fight better in the exam-battlefield :'(

p.s-kenape kalau kite letih kite tak ade mood, kite letih je bukan sedih..mcm tak ade relation pun.

 

bye! assalamualaikum

WHEN I'M NERVOUS, U PUT ME AT EASE

This view can only be found at Kolej Ibrahim Yaakob,UKM@kolej saya. Sbb kolej kteorg paling tinggi, atas bukit! saya ambil gambar ni masa balik from PTSL. Ladies and Gents, An evening view :)

SUPER HOT!

Assalamualaikum and good day everyone! I just had my lunch..what about u guys? okie potong-potong actually lagi sekali saye mengepos adelah sbb nak cerite pasal satu makanan yang agak popular dekat Msia tetapi berasal dari Thailand. Mcm ala2 Tata Young goes internationally. WHATEVER!okie..anyhoo this food is known as Kerabu mangga so called salad mangga. berkhasiat yet pedas!

Is she hot?well.. Kerabu mangga lagi hot (bli kat kafe kolej saya kalau x caye)

Honestly today I thought I wanna eat healthy by eating rice instead of hari-hari makan apple pie, mmg stock up my body with fat. I pun beli kerabu nie kat cafe. just sbg precaution those yang tak tahan pedas jgn mkan. I was about to lose my deria rasa, lidah jadi kebas, kepala pun kebas, mulut tebal and panas, ohh super hot! xtau die pki cili ape but Im sure Gisele Buncheon would love to try this cuz she eats spicy food only.South Americano mmg!

So tomorrow I ll say, Im gonna stick to my own daily routine food, kerabu mangga (KM) bukan tak sedap but lain org lain citarasa btol kan? tapi mkn KM nie menyihatkan sbb die mengandungi karborhidrat yang rendah (good for all weight watchers out there),glukosa for energy,Vit A, B1, B2 dan C. InshaAllah ia juga dapat meredakan batuk (sbb Vit C content), menguatkan limpa,melancarkan peredaran darah dan meredakan sakit.. wait! one more, KM juga x dimasak.. eat it raw! kalau sushi korg boleh makan, nescaya KM is not impossible okie!

value added: selain dari KM, kerabu juga ada dlm btk kerabu sotong, kerabu pegaga etc. you all can browse it if korg suke okie!and log on here for the recipe! selamat mencuba dan memakan!!

EAT HEALTY TO BE HAPPY!

CALL FROM MISS SERENITY

As I go through my profile pictures on Facebook,

Some strange feeling emits inside,

Something I need to change,

Something about me

In searching for pure happiness and serenity 

UNWANTED TRANSFORMATION

Again, I cannot re-sleep after gettin up for subuh. as usual when I cant sleep then I ll crap-talking :) 

Actually I think/am sure that I've transformed a bit-not-it's-a-lot! I mean, reached the 20's.. I ve changed physically and mentally too. to be honest I hate changing la.. maybe I can't get used to it yet..hope so. Physically change that I can detect of course, my teeth getting bigger that when I smile it can be soOOO notice-able and it damn hideous man! my bones pun membesar lately. that one of my friend said that, hey kalau aku tgk ko dari blakang..aku ingat ko nie lelaki rambut pjg.dem dem..

It makes me so awkward standing beside people with same chromosome. cuz I feel big and lebar! while they are tiny (they're normal, I am not!) And and yang paling dibenci oleh kaum hawa of course..my cheeks! chubbier pastu dulu if makan banyak senang turun. now makan sikit cepat naik! x seronok laaa!I admit my nature is that am a sweet tooth. so it's hard for me to restrain myself from eating those that can lead to diabetes. hope I could reduce it. and mentally transformation would be... I get more sensitive and emotional. ee! boringlahh! janji x sukee! if dulu I always take something easily but now seriously! x seronokkk! sbb mudah terasa even small stuff! to be honest, I'm just 21 going on 22! hope it's normal..please say those are normal! or maybe I am out-of norm!I prefer the robot me! rather than human with full of emotion. it's torturing and makes you think negatively (ya,about something particularly)

btw I really hate abg yang buat air kat cafe. I am not fussy, but I wish nextime I would stand up for myself. ade ke saye mintak nescafe ais dia buat teh ais. I just realize after i taste it. it's not even 1st time. before this I request for teh o limau. he gave teh o. Because I suke byr awl br ambil air, so maksudnye I pay more..la kan. teh tarik and teh o are cheaper than ape saye mintak. bukan nak sound cocky..but hey! every penny counts! stup*dnye! arahan tak dengar, buat kerja x fokus! u make me tanggung cost some more dah la saye x suka teh tarik and teh o! tu la..prasan hensem lagi!

I know berdosa mengata org and dia tak tau, but u know..as long as I didnt mention sape, xpe la.. x mengaibkan dia pun. and if sebut pun..bukan org knal . one day if die buat hal lagi, I would say this straight to his face..abg cafe, jgn asyik nak prasan hensem je,tp kja awk hampeh! abiskan duet aku je! and tekak aku jge!bye! tgk kan da kate..i am so sensitive..I need to have the old me back..syifa dulu meh la masuk balik!

okie, da ngntukk..nak tdo! BYE BYE BLACKSHIP!

IF I WERE A BOY

Actually 2 jam before saye terasa sgt lapa.. but now x boleh tdo pulak lepas mkn. tak mungkin overloaded..tp mungkin juge..ape2 je lah.. 

bile online mcm nie, kepale yg bercelaru, mate yang kabur and kawan yg online utk dikacau x rmi..so merepek da datang dlm diri. tgh membelek2 google untuk search lyrics , tibe2 saye tertekan huruf A kuar la name this one sweet girl.. honestly bang, kak, adek.. if i were a boy.. this would be my princess..bukan saye LESs ke more ke apa.. cume i think.. i like her style.. even I am not a big fan of her..last song yg i know from her is of course matahari..sbb mama saye sgt suke tgk cte tersebut. 

xsilap saye dulu rmbut die wane wani..now da jadi normal balik. I like it better mcm nie.. sweet! i like her teeth when she smiles and her eyes, they're shining! maybe die pki eye mo or mate pedih akibat lampu kuning kot.ape2 pun she's beautiful in my definition. But saye x suke masa die atas pentas tp saye puji the way die menari boleh beat saye la.. cume maybe too glamourous and diva not really my type of girl. hee :) 

how many female can really pull this hair off? saye x paatt muke saye square!

okie agnes monica.. here is your best shot! and i like you so much! selamat study ya! (currently she pursuing her studies in political sc kot)

honestly this pic biase je kan, but i like ordinary people :) she's so sweet..and cara dia senyum mengingatkan saye kepada my dearest cuzen, adek nad!

SUNSWEET

Well you are the one that lies close to me

Whispers hello, I miss you quite teribbly

I fell in love, in love with you suddenly

Now there's no place I could be

but here in your arms

Well you are the one that lies close to me

Whispers hello, I miss you, I miss you

I fell in love, in love with you suddenly

Now there's no place I could be

but here in your arms

STRESSFUL PAPER EVER

I never feel this hard, today would be the hardest and ugliest paper ever. Equal to oh-so-loser-me-paper!

The Hardest Variables- Time Constraint. I think lecturer should enhance the time lenght, at least for next batch. cuz, for 12 questions and got sub-questions which involve calculation and sketching curves.. nodding yeah, totally kena naik kan masa..otherwise mmg bungkus!at least 3 hours. not 2 H's and 15 M's!mmg very the very insufficient!

The Ugliest Variables-my condition in the exam hall! I was as usual pretty confident in the beginning and gradually deteriorates as the time slowly reach the ending. I was so freaking hungry. I barely think of any. I need energy to process and transmit infos from my brain to the paper. haihh..and one more! the announcer! Could you please do not make the announcement like thrice something??we heard you! just lose the mic boleh,

totally distracted my thinking digestion!

 haihh..da la saye lapar td, sejuk lagi, nak pulas kepale @ idea lagi..honestly, this subject mmg da dicurse oleh  our mantan batch before. but I never let it get in my way. cuz I'm so into this subject! Ohhhh options and future exchange market, I would never give up on u! eventhough I think u already jeopardize my pointer!

*Ahem* actually.. I feel a lil childish here,blame pretty much everything @ everyone while the real defendant is me :) plaintif is me juge.. 1 man show :) I left about 3 questions that cost quite big marks. damn sad when u leave the answer, but u know what the answers were.. I was too tired to think, to write, to calculate, all I could think of, was to get myself out and eat high-sugar-based food and I need Sun! (even that time already sunset)

tape la, hate the paper.. don't hate the subject.. 1 down, 2 more to go!!! sepak goal td tak dapat, so we wait for another goal to score.. make sure kalau dapat penalti, bagi masuk okie! go me!

so, say temporary full stop to exams story.. *ahem*

Recently,the term Energy really fascinates me. I used to watch A video on youtube called The Arrivals. that said Everything Is Energy, Energy Is Everything.. mase tu ada tunjuk some process which I am not sure what that was. if nak tau tgklah The Arrivals episode 1! hee..and because of that, I Change my blog title... TeeHee!

oh kie, esok no paper. Time to proceed my thesis. Wish myself luck!

signature,

APP.LE PI.E

Waving bye bye * spirit fingers! (haha, such a cheerleader wanna-be-NOT!)

FOR THE ONE WHO STOLE MY HEART, RAN SO FAR, THE CUPID COULDN'T CATCH HIM

Tomorrow is my 1st paper for finals and before I dead my journey In UKM, InshaAllah. hish, I miss being a student. Even now, I can feel that I already miss being here. carry around the book.. discuss about presentation.. dying to finish up the assgmnt.. forget what I've studied and whining later on.. hee and many many more. but guess if I never leave this place, I will never ever grow up. I never mix around with people outside, never know what is the real condition..never know how to think in matured way, take something/ everything easily etc. cuz UKM is like my shield. whenever I didn't know where to go, I ll go to UKM. plus, kiteorg tak ada curfew. wallawalla! (ayt ini tibe2 mcm out of place)

humm.. esok luckily the paper will be started at 1530. so still got time. i got another 1 chapter and a half before I complete this subject. hope i manage to get it all done by tonight. cuz tomorrow im not gonna do any revision, otherwise my otak will stuck in traffic jam. thats me! not very last min person..but in the middle of it :P

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON

Again :) this is my fav quote whenever I face difficult situation such as farewell, lost, etc.

dear mama, I made up my mind, i ll go there. see you in a month mamiu! inshaAllah. I ll always miss you :) but i know im strong enough to go alone

dear my beloved Bro.. abg u will get well soon. Im sure of that.. inshaAllah. and kita boleh pergi pasar malam sama2 like we used to and even watch chinese movie together!

 I love you both. both of you are my HARTA i always treasured.

Ya Allah, lend me your strenght to endure this..Thanks for the test U ve poured to me, all of em have make me grow stronger and tougher. I love YOU Ya Almighty!

LIFE IS MEANINGLESS ONCE AGAIN

Tomorrow mama and abg will leave the town once again. count 4 months til we meet again :(

 Life is dull and empty once again.

Now I know, what people means by U mean the whole world to me...

TODAY.. I FOUND OUT WHY...

hari ini supposedly da janji nak study dengan mama and diri sendiri but I am in no mood for book but I did face(the)book. if u get what i mean. wink sikit!

tak tau la ape kne dgan mood harini. cuz i feel so excited and energized by one perasaan iaitu, perasaan utk kacau org lain.kacau here means, macam nak annoy org lain. malangnye some of my frens tak online. yang online pula tade mood utk dikacau.sape2 yg boring and nak kene kacau please tell me asap. i cant hold on any longer!syifa suke merepek btol!

oh oh..bye the way, mase tgh dlm toilet I mcm didatangi satu pedoman..eh eh bukan2...maybe lebih tepat, insight kot. doesn't matter..sbb my bahasa and english mmg x pernah ikot skema kementerian pelajaran Msia.

lupe kan itu, tgk apa yg I mention just now,pernah x..korang buat mcm nie agaknye eh

 some WHY's and WHAT's ( a-big no-no food for me) : 

1. I always refuse to eat french fries esp. MCD punye. when people asked me why don't eat?, I ll say, sorry x suke. but actually saye pentipu tegar! I can eat that junk the whole night.  I refuse to eat sbb once i eat fries, my hands and mouth cannot stop functioning. i get addicted to something very-very-very easily,nak nak junkies. mcm apple pie tape addicted cuz it contains nutrition and  (high) in calories too. ahaks! otherwise, eating fries like crazy will only get u cancer. so limit kan consumption okie?

2. secondly! i hate ice cream! always avoid to eat em.. cuz once i eat akan jadi mcm no 1 juga.. i will eat that the whole day and i can, believe me! i wont feel muak pun. betapa hebatnya penangan ice cream. mungkin sistem kekebalan terhadap makanan2 manis saye sgt rendah. cuz I have a sweet tooth and it never comes loose! so do not offer me an ice cream :( tapi kek boleh! and the pastries family! egg tart! senyum luas2! :P

3. popcorn! popcorn..yes you! very high in calories, but almost zero nutrition. sbb dia sweet but processed food. tu yg x elok. nak2 u makan masa tgk wayang. mak aih..I penah mkn popcorn dengan my piu2..and I can't stop eating that! penat je berpuasa popcorn sekian lama..tgk2 pecah juga sbb piu2..haih..hang jaga naaaa! so makanlah jagung sebenar kat pasar malam. murah yet nutritious! -and membantu usahawan kecil2an juge :D

4. Satay! mase kcik satay was in my top list. tahniah sbb tercalon. but as I grow up.. i know x elok mkn satay cuz i'm allergic to *peanut* sauce,pity me cuz i ada sinus so keluarga nuts x boleh, ayam pun actly x boleh but belasah je sbb i aint a vegan. lagi satu sbb my belly compartment sgt besar. I'm not gonna eat 10 cucuk and happily full. it takes wayy more than that. so drpd u makan 1 stick satay yang ada carbon and berkalori 100 lebih baik mkan real food. mcm nasi goreng cina or bihun sup (janji dua2 food nie not my everyday food-saye x mkn tawar.ahaks),but ia  mengenyangkan and menyihatkan.and for health sake, mkn satay msti makan skli ngn cucumber okie!

tu je for tonight..actually there are tons of lie I've already poured just to stop people from questioning my action/reaction about something, and in this case food la kan. everything happen for a reason dude. but somehow to elaborate the reason sgt panjang. so kene cut it short terjadi lah lie. Dlm konteks ni, I hope ia tidak memudaratkan sesiapa. sbb tipu yang memudaratkan kemaslahatan org lain adalah dosa. even tipu itself pun da dosa kan. sorry folks.lagi satu i might call this action as being defensive. being defensive ain't a crime? akta tak ada pun :P hehe

btw maybe some people would say that im a health freak..actually sometimes la. according to food. kalau rasa x berbaloi makan, i wont eat. sbb food to me, really a big fat matter. eat is indulging bg saye. syarat utk masuk perut saye is as simple as satisfying :)

 thats all. 

thats y:::::

I still eat apple pie (pastries) like everday and no kidding, cakes cuz i'm crazy for em, irresistable burger, addictive Extreme mocha blended, yummy cream puff, donut yang gebu, and ada lagi guilty pleasure punya food. to be honest my daily food intake can be catogarized as unhealthy.one of  my resolution in the next 2 years is makan proper meal. so..he he ..still got time!heee~

 okie mcm da pjg sanggat je.. kne ready to sign and kiss off! muacks! 

salam

nitey!

TIME FLIES, WHY CAN U JUST STAY?

love/ befriend with someone because of who they are and not what they have :)

 no one will get hurt then.

that makes world a better place to live in 

hye againn!!! actually terpanggil untuk tulis blog lagi selepas membaca blog my sweet fren, Felly..about true fren. (macik awk telah inspire saye laa)

 actually im gonna write something very general. cuz, hmm.. general is the best to conclude every situation without any harm.

I used to be in one position when i feel used, losing my bestfren/frens/morethanfrens, using someone (but I give something as a token of appreciation),backstabbed, backstab attempt but tak jadi because takut karma and x sampai hati,kwn tukar plan saat2 akhir and i was the one yang tukar..etc.. bila dirumuskan balik.. none of em..I was plan to do or to be.. now all those things have tought and create/mould who i am today, what i believe in, who i am going to put my faith into, what characteristic i should avoid and blah blah. Ive learnt and forget a lot. but some really leave footprints on my heart. so does friends. the real one remains in my mind and heart for good. the acid and parasit ones.. will be a lesson to learn.

appreciate your time with family/frens/loveones-sometimes they might stay, some just dissapear by time and space 

i experience both :)

somehow i just miss em

SHE WOKE ME UP DAILY, DON'T NEED NO STARBUCKS ^^

LISTEN TO HIS BABY-ISH VOICE CAN MAKES ME SMILE THE WHOLE DAY :)

Those spoken words (not literally spoken la) are the sweetest :)

mcm mana nak ckp, i think i got head over heels kepada  justin bieber, i know, very-out-dated me! but susahla nak suke another blonde guy after aaron carter back when i was 13. but when i heard his song ( baby feat ludacris) i think i can forget my 1st blonde guy. hishh! sorry terpaksa meluahkan my crush towards him kat sini! my mom said, stop crapping adek! haha tp tak ada la crap kan..mama ckp jgn merepek..heee!

typically me! i thought those days akan gone once i grow up. my gosh bukan grow lagi. i think our age 7 years differ kot! haha! wish nadhirah were here. dpt la merepek same2! soorry piu!!! ni main2 je..jap lagi ilang la nie ..hehe

but again . i'd like to stress on some words yang really make me go auuu.. aaa.. heeee!! (in the song *baby*)

'And we would never ever, ever be apart' -ini very cute!!!


'I'll buy you anything'- this is very p.diddy-ish!
'I'll buy you any ring'


'Cause I'm in pieces'- no verdict just a reply! okayy justin! teee~
'Baby fix me'


'We're just friends,'  -what game is this?? cuz i kinda like it! :P
'What are you sayin''?


'You know you love me' 
'I know you care'- i just love the confidence! okie tipuu.. saye sukaaa sbb justin yang ckp!!


my heart can't stop pounding!!!! justin!

x kisahh kne juga tgk lagi satuu gmbr dieeee

heee! gmbar nie x boleh tdo mlm okie!justin...kak syifa suke sgtt!

WASN'T INBORN CREATIVE

haihh..this would be my royally 5th time changing my blog's template.

because I don't feel satisfied with the combination.. colours and picture and font and mcm2 lagi..

knape kwn2 saye punya blog cantik :( knape susah nak jadi kreatif nie..

its like my right brain, doesnt functioning at all :(

yg kali nie pon x cantik.. kne hire web-builder kot pasni ..


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waving off! buhbyes!

THE SEXIEST MARTIAL ARTS ever (at least to me!) ^.^

"&

verdict: okie..begin to like herrr!! so hot yet tough pulakk!! *peluh2*

bye byesss katy perry and her squad!

bonus point: nak blaja menari camnie

acknowledgement: credit to syera for the tips ..winking*

CAN WE START ALL OVER AGAIN?LIKE YEAH..BACK AT 1..PLEASE?

Okie, dengan officiallynye I am no longer the hotdog seller. I thought today would be my last day, but again.. it has been cancelled. due to some mysterious reason ..haish..miss nak jual2! direct selling mmg annoying but best giler once u ve tried.

Sbnrnye mlm nie nak nag about my thesis. I semakin confuse la.. between mundel-fleming approach or absorption approach? mls nye nak buat research.. due date is just around the corner. honestly..my heart cannot stop pumping (alhamdullillah) but the speed..is quite..hmm.. SPEEDY! menyesal nak mam mam buat about fiscal financing punya hubungan dengan foreign exchange nie. x seronok..sanggat!

And today, I also have giving up. I'm gonna take TL form and bagi mr beloved Prof mansor to sign and approved my kelewatan to submit the thesis. sungguh menyampahkan! white flag,white flag... I hate this term..nape hang wujud?

So tomorrow I have to be very studious in order to finish suku thesis.. maybe re-edit some part before leaving UKM. sbb next week da study leave! maybe going back home but akan frequently balik UKM.

btw tadi I watched theatre with miss DD :) it was fine.. love the confidence! bagus lah 1st and 2nd year nie! way to go!

that pretty much about today and tonight. tomorrow is another story to be told :)

HNL's OFF!