Sunday, November 27, 2011

Salam Maal Hijr

Assalamualaikum to all Muslim and citizen of this universe. Wish all of you Awal Muharram & Happy New Year! Alhamdullillah praise to Allah for giving another year for me to transform my own self to become a better Muslim. I wanted to say a good one but let just start with..better.

To start a new resolution on this Noble day, I guess I have to create new KPIs or maybe the least I could do is to improve the last KPIs that I set myself last year. Hihi. So I would know the variances & the causes of the variance and what action to take in order to meet the gap right?

On this new year, what I want to do is to get my focus at the right track. Which is onto my career. To deliver a good performance on every assigned tasks, to meet the deadlines, to be disciplined,  positive curve of consistency, meet boss' requirements, meet my own target, be firm & vocal of what I believed in and fast-learning practitioner.

Career done. Now with health. I'll make sure my system is fed with an adequate amount of water, to bring umbrella to avoid rain-shower, exercise regularly (Consider done), to try to sleep more than 5 hours and less caffeine, this is the hardest thing I hardly giving up on. Honestly!

Security Part: No more playing phone while walking, to be more alert, to practice in don't believe in stranger and discarding world peace no bandits motto while walking to the office & going back home as well, no more eating in the LRT ( malas to create etiquette part), no more crossing the road whenever I think possible (even 100 meters uncertain speed of car also I think sempat), to recite ayat Kursi during the journey and whenever possible, pepper spray, body splash would do kot. (To be added more later on)..Thinking in progress 

MOST IMPORTANT THINGS IN LIFE IS responsibilities:  where do I start huh? (head scratching) oh okay.. Religious part is not meant to be shared. That would be instilled from within, from me to my Creator. I just pray for my strength to avoid fear, to avoid feeling lost, to avoid myself from giving up without even try, to avoid myself to unnecessary cries, to avoid me from sighing, to keep my feet on the ground, to remember from what I made of, to where I will come back, for what purposes Allah created me, on what purposes I am still alive, to be a good sister to my brother, cousin and everyone. Help those in need, never expect more but aim high, love who hates, continue loving who loves, accept Allah's Qada and Qadar, forgive but never forget, be responsible, be sincere, set my nawaitu in a good manner, start doing follow-ups don't stop half way, etc. I would like to indicate more but I will bore the heck out of you guys.

Life is not about being happy all the time, it is beyond than that. That's why we learn fear, sadness, worries, anxious, nervous, feelingless and many more. Whatever journey Allah put us through, just don't forget to say subhannallah, alhamdullillah. Allah create us for several purposes. One of them to is to be a khalifah. I may not be perfect Muslim/slave but I believe in improving myself to be a better one. Remind me if I "leka"

Thank you for listening confidante(s)! 

That is just beautiful miracle isn't it?

iloveyouAllah, Penawar Bercahaya (Syifa'Unnur)

Friday, November 18, 2011

Never Back Down

OMG! I know2..I am such a terrible blog-writer. I can't believe it's almost 2 months since the last time I post the previous entry. Maybe, now I prefer to talk in a real world rather than here. Of course, lack of ideas and time barrier play the vital role in disabling me to write too.. whatever it I am again

We almost meet Xmas again that finally leads us to New year. The last blog entry about new year (2011) was, I told to Year 2011 to be nice to me. But it happened the other way around, TOTALLY. . This year, to sum it all up.. I would say the most challenging of all years. Lost someones, gain some new ones. Know some. Forget or try to forget some, been robbed by snatch-theft, Went to an event, Celebrate Raya in A diff place compare to past years, I must say Allah really put me into these tests to groom me to be a better human. So yeah, It was challenging. Changed my career path. Made some big decisions. Missed some opportunities.

To see all of these from helicopter view.. I conclude some lessons I've learned. Which are to be strong, adapt-wisely to situation, be rational when instinct isn't working, stop being judgmental towards people/decisions/matters arise etc.  be confident with yourself but not cocky, always ask why (curiosity helps doesn't it?) , be grateful, Look at every problem in a positive side (need to be more analytical on this one), but most of all, hold on to your faith and belief and keep em. Never blame other people of your failure. Try the hardest to make thing at its most productive level it could get.

To be frank, there were like thousand times I feel like quitting everything. But one way for me to get back up is using my inner voice and talk to myself about my value and what/who I am fighting for. I motivate myself by using my own mother as a role model. If she could endure this alone, why can't I?

Life is like a long-term exams. Problems are like your test paper. If you pass the test, Proceed. If you don't and give up.. You'll lose and stuck. So act/answer correctly or give a satisfactory answers to all the paper, think wise before you think twice. 

Thank you for your kind attention.

Warm Regards, 

Syifa Aziz

Thought of the day: I need to improve my discipline in writing this blog :)