FREEDOM TASTES SO SWEET

Hah! sebab awk la saye tdo pon ingt awk, mimpi pon awk jadi watak utama, jalan2 dok terngiang2 nama awk

awk la thesis saye 

(ini adalah draft thesis saye yg kene reject, byk gak pokok kne tebang disebabkan perkare tersebut)

After been in such a  whole tiring few months, I finally managed to get my self out from cengkaman thesis. After quiet several of rejection, I finally got accepted. Thanks to my beloved lecturer/ supervisor for never ever give up on me. I know I did mess up here and everywhere. But what he did, was just throw his smile and laugh at my loqlaq-ness and corrected it until it comes to near perfection. Today, this morning, I got the feedback that I long for, He said those keramat words that made my day! I was happy as  happy meal that got me singing along the journey to bustop sbb tgh dgr ipod and lagu kegemaran tgh bermain utk balik ke kolej. and yes, he accepted it and said awk da boleh jilid! yayyyyy!

     Ucapan penghargaan yg standart VVIP starts here!- ape2 pon saya nak ckp thanks kat mama saya yg tak tdo lena dek aduan saye yg macam2 nie.. sakit blakang la, demam kecil-kecilan la, kaki denyut2, kepale kebas la spjg membuat thesis etc..anak pompuan sorg ..tp mcm berpuluh2 kan mama..sorry ye! I love u my greatest love! and to all my friends yg terpakse bersaba tgk status2 pangkat annoying kat Fb berkenaan tesis..mesti korg ade ckp camnie 'ele..org lain wat tesis juge, x rioh sekampung cam ko pun..hek eleh.. ' biase la.. saye nie terikot cara ayam.. aym dpt telur satu..da 'ko ko ko' satu kmpung.. But anyway thank you (s) sgt! especially to those who taught me mcm2 berkenaan statistics, teman saye kat library (U know who u are) and ajar edit tesis ikot gaya UKM. Janji kamu menyusahkan idup saye edit-editan oi!

      Last but not least, To encik hearbeat..thanks and sorry terpakse dgr bebelan saye sepanjang 4 bulan. bebel yg x bebel sgt actually more to keluh kesahan.. saba yek.. thanks for everything! *heart smiles* ok oleh itu, dgn officially nyaa.. I am no longer a UKM student and berstatus penganggur! I must say, being a student is the most I miss! Title student.. contains LOTsa meaningful memories :)

Randomnization (ayt baru wujud 3 mins tadi) - It doesn't matter how it starts, cuz whats important, how it ended.. kan kan..mcm no gak 000123 .. yg signifikan ialah 123..but kalau 123000.. haaa! kan best kalau angka nie ade dlm bank kite! ye tak ye kan.. ok, silalah menabung! tibe2 out of topic..before that enjoy this

ok bye!I need to take some movies from my fren. tgk cte hindustan br hype! kan.. kot.. ntah

 THA-THA!

AMAZING AL-HAD!

1) Ahad da mencerminkan (al-HAD) mari kita bereHAD/t!! which also means HAD of the week. Indirectly spoken, we need to rest. Sbb nati monday, we need to get back on track..yes, org bekerja in particular.

2) Tadi tibe2 bangun saye mendapati suhu badan menjadi x normal. so I conclude that today saye demam kecil-kecilan and its time to take 5 from hustle bustle of thesis .. Now I know penangan tdo lambat and kesan stress terhadap tahap sistem imunisasi diri [ mcm tajuk tesis u]

3) Sejak mengambil ekonomi sbg platform hidup saye, sedikit sbyk it changed my nature. I become more analytical. especially the way I think. I tend to think about something in more depth and breadth point of view. hasilnya, saye berfikiran kompleks and sometimes rase otak tersimpul and trus lost..BHAAAAA

4) Sambungan no 3, pastu saye rasa saye ni weirdo.. bila saye ckp, saye akan berfikir dulu abstrak2nye dlm kepale.. mase high school abstrak saye dlm bntuk normal word, now sume dlm persamaan..equation! So kadang2 agak sukar nak phm ape yg saye smpikan. no one to blame..cuz I don't understand myself too sometimes. once again.. rmi2 jom! BHAAAA

5) Saye suke random thoughts, Sbb it helps my brain to exercise, But consequently I cannot stop thinking about that thoughts. yg tu x best, sbb nati kepale berdenyut2 dok pk punya pasai. contohnye, I once terbace quote by Einstein saying.. The Hardest Thing In the World To Understand is the income tax. yeeeer..janji sampai skang I dok pulun think about the meaning. Maybe I could be the word analyzer!

and...I don't comprehend my real objective of making this entry look like a Powerpoint or something instead of put it in a paragraph like I always do.. ok tu je.. time to rest til tomorrow Approaches! 

before that, ade ke org phm maksud, Don't look at something from the mirror, Cuz In reality.. it is nothing like that.. I know..not! BHAAAA...

THE WEDDING PLAN EPISODE 1

First and foremost, thanks to cik Huda yang x pernah jemu tag saye!  *Bowing* Basically, this interview is all about your/my/we/siape2 la punye plan for wedding..ala2 interview majalah Wanita gituzz! Ape2pun saye sgt terhibur menjawab soklan di bwh ni (ok x jwb lagi da tahu, mmg x logik) AYUH!

1. How old are you?
17 years old, 5 years ago

2. Are you single?
single but not available (not married yet)


3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?

26 < years < 30, but if let say jodoh meets me sooner,lagi yay!


4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
InshaAllah, Please amin and doakan ok

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
mm..Robert Downey Jr. la kalau camtu 


6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding?

Traditional, baru rase kahwinn!

7. Your ideal motif?
Garden boleh pegi selalu, even sblh midvalley pun ade.. if beach, better snorkelling tak pyh kahwin..so traditional won!


8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?

kampung saye kat Rome!

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?

i think around 500 kat ats, x pndai budget pulak tang nie

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
Nak extra-large-vagant boleh?

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own?
Tgk tema kahwin kita camne..nati kita jwb yg nie KIV dulu


12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?
 Sarawak layer cake je la, yg selebih nya 5 tingkat cupcakes!

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
Rumah satu and hotel satu! so merase la due2..ye la..kahwin bukan salu  :P

14. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?
Hari Jumaat mlm Nikah, pukul 1230 tghari Sabtu sanding :P

15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
Depends On the weather, for guest comfortableness-sake [ayt nie mcm x wujud]


16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom?
no need, tp utk saye boleh! :P

17. Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding?
To be honest, nak lagu endless love tp selang seli ngn lagu kahwin2 60-an


18. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
Ikot mama and mak mentua ckp camne


19. What age do you want to get married?
ice.age!

20. Describe your ideal husband/wife

I don't have any specific standart, But when I see this guy I know that our chemistry can blend and mix well :) I know it must be him 

21. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?

Fine Dining!! normal spoon kat mapley seksyen 1 pun boleh


22. Champagne or red wine?
Air Bandung Johor style!

23. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
depends on current situation


24. Money or household item?
money. to buy household items. (huda, I tiru bolat2)


25. Who will pay for the bills?

share-share..gaji sape lagi tinggi kena byr lebih! kidding 

26. Are you ready for married life?
not yet, But I'm working on it! blaja masak sedap2 and babysit kanak2 are my initial preparation


27. Will u always be true to your wife/husband
Dear my future hubster, yes I do


28. How many kids do you like to have?

range 2 to 4..If I got more or less,still alhamdullillah


29. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
New house, Thats why financially stable is a must before getting married. tp rumah biase2 la bukan mansion ok

30. Will you celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding?
Gold fish!..yes i mean gold weds!


31. What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?

saye suke briyani gam utk malay food, gado2 for javanese food, sharkfin soup utk chinese food and ladu utk indian food.. cukup la heavy meal, side dish and dessert! (1 Malaysia baby!)

32. Will u record your honeymoon in a cd or dvd?

don't mind. kamera phone pun boleh, yg penting 'record in memory' Metafora yg berlebihan


33. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next? Choose 5 person.
my gorgeous:Mimie,lily,loli,felly,iszat,bume

p.s i love u- korang buat bile free tau..kalau x free KIV dulu ok

Harini ni random saye about brand. korang msti salu dgar pasal brand colgate yg sinonim dgn ubat gigi, milo sinonim dgn malt coklat, nestum sinonim dgn bijirin, mangga dgn gossipnye etc . Ini dikenali sbg Monopoli.Tp kini monopoli mcm so last-season punya issue (but on going) in this season, ade new intangible strategy for branding tp x la baru sgt..iaitu celebrity branding. Sebut Nike ingt Tiger Woods and kes tamak pompuan, Adidas ade Beckham, Gillete has Roger Federer , paris dgn Guess nye and Michael schumacher bergaye sakan dgn jam omega nye. So whats next.. take a lucky guess..hah!

tu je..THATHA!

In contrast, I begin to like it today!

OK HARI NI HARI X CANTIK SGT SBB MY DRAFT KENA EDIT BALIK AND SO THE BANYAK CORRECTION PULAK TU. SKARANG HUJANNN AND KILAT DISELANG SELI KAN DGN CAHAYA.AGAK TAKUT SBB IM ALONE DLM BILIK..CIK YAYA BKN NM SEBENAR TP NAMA GLAMER DA BLIK FOR GOOD, ALHAMDULLILLAH THESIS DIE DA SIAP DAN DITERIMA, SAYE PUNYE PENDING SBB SAYE PUN XTAU NAPE, SUSAH KOT MODEL STATISTIK NIE. NVM, I FEEL RELAX NOW DESPITE OF KILAT CHY KELIHATAN SEOLAH2 MASUK KE BILK (SBB BILIK TGKAT DUE AND DIRECT DEPAN TINGKAP) SBB TADI SAYE DA MKN BYK.. NASI BUNGKUS- TDO-BORAK DGN HEARTBEAT-SOLAT- OAT,2 bUNGKUS BISKUT LEMON- CHIPSTER SWEET SOUR FLAVOUR-NESCAFE MERAH-ONLINE THRU IPOD SBB KILAT-  SUSAH GAK NAK TYPE SBNRNYE .NAMUN KU GAGAHKAN JUA SBB BORING LAK X WAT APA2. BTW THIS MORNING I XTAU NK WAT APE TAU..THEN BUKE LA YOUTUBE..THE NEXT THING I KNOW, I END UP LEARNING MANDARIN ONLINE. EDUCATIONALLY FUN!! ESOK SAMBUNG LESSON 12 PULAK.. TEEHEE~ 

       PJG LAK ESEI KALI NIE, MMG SYOK SENDIRI PUNYE ENTRY..;) OK KILAT MAKIN KUAT, TAKOT BTOL.. WISH MAMA ADE KAT SINI.. NAK SOROK BWH SELIMUT.. SELIMUT PULE TGH BASUH, GUESS GROWING UP PROCESS IS TOUGHER THAN I THOUGHT. APE2 PUN KENA CHEER UP. CUZ I JUST RECEIVED A MSG FROM MY MUM *hEART SMILES* TOODLES~ ZHAI JIEN! WO HEN LEI

    

PIECE OF CRAP

DEAR MYSELF,

NEVER GIVE UP ON SOMETHING BECAUSE IT GETS TOUGH, BECAUSE THE TOUGH GETS GOIN'

AND BECAUSE THE TOUGH GETS U GOIN' 

hey all!! aloha! mabuhai! ok crap enough..can stop by now.. I created this quote just now..someone somehow inspires me. thats why, when I re-read it..I think maybe some people couldn't understand what Imma trynna convey here. [hopperz accent kot]. I hope everyone comprehends and apply this in our daily life

BTW, I feel much much better after watching this:

I used to follow him 2 years ago. Then I stop cuz I got something much better to do. No, It just that , wifi connection in my college a bit terrible.

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hilariousism!! watch his previous episode if u like his vid. can be a laugh-booster or something. even he kutuk bieber..but he condemned beautifully! teeheeeeee :P and yes this lovely morning.. I feel energized and powered by nescafe and lemon-flavoured biscuits! (AND THIS IS NOT AN ADVERTISEMENT)


watch this..hoho

NOw, I'm all geared up and ready to go.. WEDNESDAY!

note-I think I'm kinda person who thinks in disconnected ideas, maybe thats why [somehow] I'm not good at giving speech..half true, half myth!

LEADERSHIP IN YOU

WHAT TYPE OF LEADER ARE YOU? put that answer on hold..or answer it in your heart, you know yourself the best than others. Are you Mahatma Gandhi , Nelson Mandela Or Nazi? The similarity between these 3 are of course, all of them are iconic LEADERS but it just their style of leadership are different. Personally I'm so touched by what Mahatma Gandhi had contribute to the world and made such a big impact on people's life. That's the real meaning of leadership to me. Yes! Impact on others..because leader usually thinks in terms of result. And leader always put rakyat on top as their priority and sacred sacrifice, is never a think-twice action. Gandhi used to be a lawyer, He divulged negotiations rather than violence, he wanted people to merge as one regardless our religions/faith, geography, ethnicity, orientation etc. A not-so-big Guy with a really-big heart was a guy in everyone's life that I truly sincerely adore!

Before this end, extrovert has always been labelled as a good leader meanwhile an introvert more to negative side..But actually leadership is like a symphony. 'symphony is important to all leaders but quiet leaders might have an edge because they do more listening and therefore they might get a better and more information. Be a leader and not a boss. A leader's advantages are being able to make our voice heard and soldier on! :)

JUST GOT BACK!

MY WISHLIST(s)-

1) Finish THESIS

2)Pursue my 'put-off' hols

3)Off to SWK by now

3)Got a job that I long for 

4)More TIME.. 

5)Leave me aloneeee! Distract me once I am not busy! (yes, particularly you!)

6)A fine vacation with 2008, dec TEAM. (good old times huh)

7)Face to stop growing/planting pimples and oil. annoying!

8)Reduce weight! this is waAAYY beyond control

9)Eat-healthy

10)Muizz Zainuddin, balik esok!

STRONG SMELL OF COFFEE ESSENCE

Aphrodisiac? naahh..it is just something I need to keep me energized and alertness booming! Gosh what the hell I'm crapping about..yesterday I submitted my full draft to DR. MJ. So today I feel kinda bored and lost direction as I don't know what to do in order to keep myself occupied. I wish there's a mall next to UKM and not to mention -ia adalah berjarak walking distance- I have to put it in my wishlist perhaps..no? I love walking in the mall. no no..it's not shopping-thing that matters. I'm not good at shopping..to be honest..sometimes I don't even know what to buy.I have such a bad fashion sense and I only like free make-up stuffs. otherwise, I always consider those things aren't part of my needs. cheapskate syifa!

My fave places to go for this walking-in-the-mall would be KLCC and Alamanda. I just love the size which is not too big/complicated and the ambience and the smells too. It gives me such a calm feeling and I feel free like a bird. ok, what a metaphore! especially when I passed by coffee shops or donuts outlet..wow! the coffee-ish smell's so menenangkan and soothes my senses. yup2! i akan inhale dlm2 mase tu..and exhale! legaa.. That's what I always do whenever I feel so stress out or feeling depressed. Human nature, we can't never avoid those negativites but we can prevent them. walking is a therapy. even there's a research about it and proven, that it's good for our heath too.

I'm thinking of something really random today like How to be  1st class-minded, how do I look and behave if I wasn't a girl, What if chinese speaks Malay and Malay Speaks tamil and korean Speaks English and Japanese speaks Javanase? I mean as in their mothertongue languange.. and What if my dad still here.. haha..random right? GTG

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

DEAR MAMA, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

 I wish I could celebrate this special day everyday so U know how much I love U

 From merely know ABC

until I know how to put em altogether and spell such a beautiful word as mom :)

Thanks for everything and be my everything..

I love you maumy!

InshaAllah kalau da kerja nati, dpt gaji 1st adek bli kan maumi jam satu set ok. I'm sorry sbb pernah hilangkan jam mama.. ;'( 

SYIFA ON HER OH-SO-LAST-SEASON-PRE FAN

OMG!!!-Intentionally promoting Usher's new song called OMG feat. Will.I.am (ok tipu!). I was born as someone who's always left-behind when it comes to teen phenomenon. Just consider that I'm too lazy to keep up with trend, on my defence.. it keeps on changing, rapidly pulak tu. Such a waste of feeling/time though. BUT! I'm a loyal fan. Once a fan, it remains forever..well depends actually, just nak buat ayt poyo.I'm pretty sure that everybody is familiar with Hilary Duff kan..I was once the ultimate watcher of Lizzie Mcguire that I didn't even mind if I watched the same episode for 10 times! AST** suke ulang banyak kali!!! 

Ok,so how to relate 1st paragraph with the 2nd? hmm.. I'm not a GG fan but I did watch the phenomenon series..But still not a fan..But but! I just found out the 3rd season could be the start of something different!kinda get the feeling that I'mma be one of the fans either! yes, just because Hilary Duff did some cameo in that series.. I'm not sure lama ke tak apperance dia.. according to Mr.Heartbeat tak lama sgt.  but still goin to watch! yahay! So, presenting *drumrolls* hils with her interview on joining the GG team! yeah,I know..I'm so outdated!

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tata for now! look like I've had stalk enough :P kissing off!

LAW OR TRADITION

Kinda busy lately..not really..just making myself busy..so I wont feel bored and guitless towards miss Thesis. I'm in the library again!! I don't know why..But whenever I'm here,I'll acquire that mood..yup! that mood to write! I may not be the greatest blog-writer or someone who has most ideas of witty jokes..But this is me..I accept myself with an open arms! cut it off..blaah!

Actually I nak update about my interview that day..it went well! I guess.. 1st time, I felt calm and managed not to lose my cool while talking. Thanks to miss Experience! U helped me alot! made some friends.. really cool people indeed! nice to talk with people who has various knowledge and thoughts. the interview consisted of 3 different level. each level has different difficulties and risks. 1st-low.. 2nd-moderate.. 3rd-u-know-i-know (high)

1st stage, I had to write an essay.choose only 1 question and answered within 15 mins.. one page kasik penuh ok? this stage, no one will be executed.So semua sila masuk stage 2.. stage 2, a bit hard kot. one-on-one interview. the interviewer asked me some questions. This part was to know what's your passion and which department they should place you.nervous kau! sbb this stage adalah proses elimination. So apalagi, I cerita la bagi hebat2 skit.. pasal hotdog sume..puji2 diri sket..tgn bagi gerak2 sket,so when I speak broken english dia x prasan..sbb tgn saye ligat bernari2. oh ye..he also asked me, syifa, why banking? -pleaseinsertcoinstoknowtheanswer- settle!

Then he said 'so Syifa, I'll place you at selling department ok'. lompat! berjaya proceed to the final stage..this part was risky. They asked details about yourself..and your goal..and your thesis too! damn! luckily I didn't lose it..still connected. She wanted to know what my research is all about and explain to her..this part was all about ujian minda. she gave me a paper. ada soalan.. 3 customers with diff backgrounds. It was about investment.If I were their  financial consultant, how did i recommend/advised those people to invest wisely in different investment instruments. she gave me 3mins to think..and yes, I hentam mengikut logik akal. 

So much for interview huh.. to all my friends who's actively looking for jobs..some tips to share:very cliche but hope it's helping and ini tak copy and paste dari yahoo! 1st, be yourself. don't be nervous, just relax..if you can't relax and be calm..find some friends to talk..don't forget to eat or bawak bekal makanan masa nak interview..takut u all lapa masa tunggu. bila lapa brain cells jadi malas..carbs is the best! pki baju yg nmpk formal and profesional..jgn pki sexy2 sgt (short skirt etc) and suar ketat (mcm skinnies) with kemeja. so ugly! cuz it would give negative perceptions from your interviewer. Lack of professionalism and tak tau dress code.. I saw some people that day yg pki mcm ni tak lepas.. kemas kan diri anda..ikatlah rambut anda yg wavy dan perang tu juga. oh yes, don't be cocky..mantain eye-contact..be energetic even you already wait for like 2 hours.. smile authentically.. and introduce yourself even they don't ask.. be polite and stay focus..and byk lagi.. but I know u guys have your own strategies! goodluck! assalammualaikum!

PENGISYTIHARAN ... HARI THESIS SEDUNIAAAAA *applause*

Yesterday was quite a remedy to me.. :) went karaoke-ing with two of my coursemates..it is such a good way to de-stress..by stressing out your throat and stomach just to reach high notes..*blink-blink* try ok!And now here I am again, in the library with slightly different mood than yesterday. kalau semalam saye gile hari ni..lagi gilest! saye ber-dating dgn Thesis dr petang td smpi petang ini..ok actually nak tunjuk betapa kejap nye ktoerg hang out same2..tapi I da rase bahang2 bored ngn u.. u make me sleepy and dizzy2 lalat. nasibaik bakery is just around the corner..after a few sip of white coffee..trus I hyper and active so jadilah Hyperactive..luckily tak ADHD. not funny syif..moveeeeeee..

and tomorrow another pressure's coming! yay! I got an interview at Bukit bintang,royale hotel  at 1330 from a quite well-known bank..so torturing because interview tersebut tak ubah mcm finals! dem! kteorg ade essay sume siap..tggl nak bagi pointer je..which is equal to recruitment process. hope essay itu berkenaan dengan benda2 logik..kalau x logik, I'll sleep and be rebellious..kidding.ttp jawab..tapi merapu.jgn ko suruh viva pulak lepas tu..mmg sah saye jadi statue of liberty je kat depan.I don't care what will happen tomorrow..but today I ll say bring it on! yeaaa..mmg esok saye akan jadi kecut.. muke jadi nerd..sume lengkap. RABU, don't give me a bad day ok. Cuz I lahir hari rabu la rabu..I know u re going to obey me.. BAIKKKK...! ok love, nak sambung karangan.. assalamualaikum..tc all!

LOVEEVOL,
SYIFA

tgk la sape pelapis celine dion beb

Tata for now..Happy happy wednesday in advance!

I WILL LEARN HOW TO PLAY BOWLING STUDIOUSLY THEN

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Adorable dance and voice u got there justy!! okay, I can't get over him yet..kakak suka awk!!! *gasping for air*  sambung....

BTW, Today cik Yaya and I moved to another room for luar sem purpose and to pursue our on-going (yeah right) thesis. I guess we already lost 5 kg's, mane taknya..ulang alik dlm 5 times approximately , x kire naik turun tangge lagi..and clean up our new room yg mcm gua nie..haih..cube sum up semua..I guess dlm 5 Km's kot jalan..hooh..and to add some spice, cafe pule tutupp..today kan Labour Day..Mak aihh.. Once again turun naik bukit pegi kafe kat kolej bwh. But I'm happy afterall cuz We managed to accomplish everything perfectly from check out and check-in.from angkat2 beg until habis proses mengemas..yeah! I feel activated again!  and tonight nak dload cteee..opppss..forgot my first mission already..sorry miss T..catch up with u RRrrreeeaaaaLL sooOONNnnnn!

DULU LAIN, SEKARANG LAIN

Dulu..
Saye salu gembire, saye lupe erti duke

Dulu..
Saye salu bye-bye org sampai saye tak pikir perasaan org lain

Dulu..
Saye tak pernah berkorban sebesar ini

Dulu..
Saye salu minum ice blended, ade ke saye kisah pasal duit

Dulu..
Saye menangis atas perkare kecil/tgk cerita sedih

Tapi sekarang semua berubah..

Sekarang..
Saye terkilan tgk org balik..now I know mcm mane rase kena bye-bye

Sekarang..
Saya banyak bersedih drpd gembire tapi saye bersyukur

Sekarang..
Nak minum cendol pun saye berhati-hati, now I know value sehelai duit/skeping syiling

Sekarang..
Saye banyak risau, saye hilang fokus..tapi saye lebih banyak berdoa

Sekarang..
Saye mudah mengalirkan air mate, saye rase saye mcm tgh pikul beban yg besar atas bahu saye

saye letih sangat..saye da lupe bile saye betul2 senyum dan happy

Bila saye jalan sorg2..saye salu ckp ngn diri sendiri.. graf saye dekat bwh ke sekarang ni..atau saye baru sedar akan situasi ini sbb saye lebih matang dari dulu n lebih ambil berat tentang perasaan org lain. Saye byk merungut dlm blog..saye kerap berdoa..saye salu harap bile bangun pagi..saye jadi mcm dulu..saye ni pengecut, saye salu nak lari dari masalah..saye akan terus berdoa agar semua menjadi normal/lebih baik. Saye tau test2 nie semua nak jadikan saye matang..Kekuatan, saye perlu2 desperately perlukan awk. sebelum itu, saye takkan putus asa. saye tau Allah da buat link yang terbaik utk hamba2-Nya. Thanks Ya Almighty. I love YOU.

WHEN THE RAIN STARTS SINGING LOUDLY TONIGHT

My heart is pounding strangely. As I inhale, the rythmic pound will pause for awhile and after a few secs The heart will pound harder. Faster than usual and the feeling is nothing great. I feel like grey clouds on top of my head  covered everythings up. hardly for me to think straight. I'm sorry for the whine. But I'm in the need of being honest. I can talk to someone...if I wanted to..but when it comes to words, I'm not good at expressing them in order to depict my feelings. Cuz when I write, I feel calm. More calm. I speak too fast, I speak and I don't think. feel stupified. Tonight, I can feel the wind blows gracefully through my face, the mixture of the tears and the wind generate quite a few feelings.I feel relieved but lonely. I am scared but I am strong. It's courage that I'm longing for. 

THIS IS NOT A HOLIDAY---->YET

Dear 27th,
I feel so demotivated..I thought today I wanna continue my thesis, But I still feel tired and I keep worrying about it..it bothers me a lot. I got a headache too, I wish mama were here..sounds like a baby but I just need my confidante so bad right now. Motivation please come back. strenght please don't go. This is the time when I need both of you the most! but headache..u can go away. don't force me to ask panadol to do so ok. I didn't mean to sound so melancholic like this..gosh, bad day.. please leave me today!

*Tears are words the heart can't say*

A VERY QUICK ONE!

Okay ..I am not sure why I need to update this blog everyday..ok I will tell why but tomorrow.. instead of to kill excess time, I got another more relevant and defensive points. teehee :P yeah right, quick one konon.. 

*ahem* actually I ll be having my final paper tomorrow aka the very2 last one cuz this is my final sem at UKM =( sadness! move move..

okay, im taking a break for awhile as I feel tired  baca factual thingy, boring!mcm nak give up..but ragu2 esok whether saye akan dapat jwb dgn hati sronok ke hati sedih. saye x nak dan x suke yg kedua tu! I once terbaca one article about the happiest citizen in the world. guess negara mana?  ok aku je la jwb.. Denmark2! why this nordic country is at no 1.. why?? simple..because they live their life with less-expectation. So esok saye nak aplikasi dlm exam. less expectation leads to a better day and happy me(al) !! yes!

Btw saye tgh baca about crisis ekonomi..best x?? mestilah best cume boring je..hurff! extra tips- nak cepat ingt kan korg makan buah kering yang manis aka kismis, kurma, prun etc. selain good for brain, its good for health and body kerana ia akan reduce radical bebas dlm badan anda. radical bebas tu apa..google la ye..saye nak hapal faktor2 jap..tata! Assalamualaikum. have a nice monday everyone!

NOW I KNOW WHY RIHANNA MADE THAT RUDE BOY SONG

Today's entry is kinda personal sbb I'm gonna voice out my opinion (again). As a precaution do not read for those who cannot handle confrontation or may be allergic to it. Cuz it may contains..sarcasm and anything related to that.  

Ahad pagi lagi sedap nak membebel. gimme a chance ok..blame the exams! I got so stressed out :P Inspirations/the eagerness to write this appeared just right after I reached my room after food-hunting. This is true story anyway. lupe nak mention. ok start!I get so pissed-off dgn some people who got no manners towards org tua. aku allergic dgn2 bnde2 berkaitan dgn respect nie. I don't know who is this guy and which planet he came from.. But I feel like I wanna smash his face with nasi briyani..bagi pedih mate die!he's not supposed to talk rudely dengan org tua tu..sbb die muda..sangat! I thought at first he was sleepy because it was early in the morning right. Then this org tua asked for (something) cannot mention..kang org rude tu dapat dikesan oleh org2 UKM. pastu badi dtg kat aku. tak mahu! and then he answered mcm nak tanak senang cta ala2 nak mati. what a turn off!

 I was there to observe the  *soap opera* cuz I duwana accuse someone tanpa asas..then yg made me terkilan, came la this one guy with a suit, looks like somebody's coming! (maybe dlm hati laki rude tu jerit mcm nie) and maybe dia tu lecturer ke dato or tan sri I dun give a **** , tibe2! boleh jadi soft spoken ala2 tone ckp nak ayat awek. I was like..hey, *whatthefishcrap* discriminate and hypocryte btol! and the uncle tua tadi was maybe a gardener or something.. Mcm nak nangis cuz mase abg rude tu ckp kasaq2 kat dia, muka dia berubah expression. I can't tell whether he was sad or terkjot.. but maybe both!I hope Malaysian baik yang lain wont do this no morale thingy. Nampak sgt uncivilised ok. imagine if this happen to your datuk or pacik awk yang atas 50 tahun.. U all tahu kan, mereka ni da masuk golongan emas and extra-sensitive,please..do respect. They'll pray something good for you in return.

Sekadar renungan-Bhs kita suka label org ikot pangkat..macam kalau org tu datuk or kaya2 skit mula lah panggil beliau ke or (u-know-what-i-bet) and bla2, mcm beliau mula menjadi kaya seawal umur 22 tahun..tp kalau timur tengah mcm Jepun or Korea or aku tak tau la korg bg suggestion.. no discrimination (correct me if im wrong) diorg label manusia ikot senioriti..kalau org tua penggunaan bhs dia lebih sopan dan santun.haa..mcm tu! I think thats why some of our people still hold that narrow perspective. hey, x global and x cool ok! til then..Do respect, don't discriminate, be curteous!

Ell-Ow-Vee-Ee,

Syifa' U. aziz

and thats how u pronouce love =)

TOO MANY WHY SYIFA..TOO MANY

When mind, strenght and heart are not together,

One's body will perished by emotion,

Why cannot I be positive,

Why my body ain't listen to my sanity,

Why can't I fake my optimism,

To continue my patience and perseverence,

Why am I here writing this,

Why can't I control me,

Why all of sudden I feel weak,

To be honest, will I ever be able to discover the truth, 

Or there's no truth,

Life can you please stop the riddles for awhile,

Cuz I am a bit fragile today,

so I cannot guess the answer properly,

Bonda, your anakanda needs you now,

There's no place I could go or turn to here..this is so torturing,

Sanity versus emotions,

Sanity please ask emotions to leave me,

cuz you aren't the citizen of my kingdom,

I'd be relieve if you leave,

So don't tell me the vice versa

I cannot do this anymore

ADA APA PADA BEG

Assalamualaikum and very good afternoon bro, sister, macik etc hope korang sume in a good shape and condition.kalau x sile refer post kat bwh nie. btw! (excitedkan sikit bunyik) I got a tag from cik siamang Hudhud untuk buat satu activity yg bertajuk..yaaa yaa..temen da mention kat ateh tu..

So here we go! start! 10 mins dari skang!(susunan terpenting ke yang kurang penting okaay) and terangkan sikit nape benda2 tu mesti ada dalam bilik engkorang..hoho..!

so kte ice breaking dulu-->

hello, saya beg syifa'..name saye blackie! name awk?

kamilah peneraju-peneraju blackiee!

purse adelah ketue! paling wajib ade.sbb ade duit, ID,kad kolej,matrik,ATM, gambar piu-piu ngn adek nad ,resit yg x berguna dan mcm2 lagi. I can't imagine my day without u reddie!

payung no 2. (kalau kat ukm) sbb I dun have a car. I need to walk. kang ujan kang, xpasal i mandi free..x kuase mak.i love u payung!

haa! org lain pki make up, die pun nak make up. hoho. ni adelah top 3 brg mmg kne ade. pencil eyeliner,lipgloss and mascara. dorg mcm adek beradik da.honestly jgn tnye saye pki eyeliner mase tdoq ke..it hurts la weh! aku tau aku x pndai pki and salu messy..huhu..blame the perspiration ok?

peh tu yg pnting sgt sbnrynye kunci ni ha..ko tade kunci aku x boleh masuk bilik..ape2 pun ure the best! i promise x kan lupe bwk ko lagik 

kemudian2, haa..ni name die live! saye pki nie kalau saye x mandi or rase bufusukfuk..teehee..penting beb!thanks sbb x pernah gagal menyelamatkan saye! muacks!

saye nie seorg yang rabun dan x sedar diri.why i say like that..ya ya! saye x suke pki neither spec nor lens. sbb humm..spec saye besaq and x tukaq2 since matrix and so out of trend peh tu, lens..saye pki once dan decide.tamo pki da. ever! maybe..tooot and saye bwk sunnies juge..sbb saye rabun dan silau!

saye salu naik KTM kalau nak balik or pegi mid. sbb tu saye perlukan ini (rujuk kat bwh) kalau boring saye dgr..x boring pun donga jugak.sbb tunggu sorg2 kadang2 x tau nak wat ape..lagi satu nak mengelakkan mate saye tak tentu arah pndang org.hish!i love u my gedik! (gajet snrnye)

Tips of the day! saye ni pengantuk dlm kelas dan seorg yang suke mengunyah.. saye akan mkn bubble gum or ape gum la..x kisah asal ko halal je. sbb mkn gule x longlasting..kjap da masuk perot. saye boleh mengunyah 2 jam okie. smpi loya aku dibuat ko..but on top of all, ure my hero!

okie ini da masuk brg saye jrg bwk..tp terbwk..iaitu incik kamera dan incik compact powder. saye x suke pki compact sbb muke saye ade pore besau2.. so nati die masuk dalam pore tersebut and akan timbul masalah PIGmentasi kulit. xsronok kan..i will use it kalau ada event penting

I didn't mention cellphone did i?? kan.. sbb saye letak dlm poket. (ok x lawak) proceed..

dan kemudian arahan terakhir permainan ini ialah..tag kawan awk seramai 5 org (tp saya nak tag lebey kalau boleh sume org) ... lai lai leng lui!

• felly
• loli
• anne
• lily
• mime
• qyqy
• and sape2 nak buat, buat ye! sorry saye explain mende ni pjg sgt..aku tgk pun boring..apetah lagi enkorang..mahap la ye

p.s-buat tau kalau korg da abis exam nati! and kalau boring cam aku nie haa..alohmoraaaa!! bye!