NOW I KNOW WHY RIHANNA MADE THAT RUDE BOY SONG

Today's entry is kinda personal sbb I'm gonna voice out my opinion (again). As a precaution do not read for those who cannot handle confrontation or may be allergic to it. Cuz it may contains..sarcasm and anything related to that.  

Ahad pagi lagi sedap nak membebel. gimme a chance ok..blame the exams! I got so stressed out :P Inspirations/the eagerness to write this appeared just right after I reached my room after food-hunting. This is true story anyway. lupe nak mention. ok start!I get so pissed-off dgn some people who got no manners towards org tua. aku allergic dgn2 bnde2 berkaitan dgn respect nie. I don't know who is this guy and which planet he came from.. But I feel like I wanna smash his face with nasi briyani..bagi pedih mate die!he's not supposed to talk rudely dengan org tua tu..sbb die muda..sangat! I thought at first he was sleepy because it was early in the morning right. Then this org tua asked for (something) cannot mention..kang org rude tu dapat dikesan oleh org2 UKM. pastu badi dtg kat aku. tak mahu! and then he answered mcm nak tanak senang cta ala2 nak mati. what a turn off!

 I was there to observe the  *soap opera* cuz I duwana accuse someone tanpa asas..then yg made me terkilan, came la this one guy with a suit, looks like somebody's coming! (maybe dlm hati laki rude tu jerit mcm nie) and maybe dia tu lecturer ke dato or tan sri I dun give a **** , tibe2! boleh jadi soft spoken ala2 tone ckp nak ayat awek. I was like..hey, *whatthefishcrap* discriminate and hypocryte btol! and the uncle tua tadi was maybe a gardener or something.. Mcm nak nangis cuz mase abg rude tu ckp kasaq2 kat dia, muka dia berubah expression. I can't tell whether he was sad or terkjot.. but maybe both!I hope Malaysian baik yang lain wont do this no morale thingy. Nampak sgt uncivilised ok. imagine if this happen to your datuk or pacik awk yang atas 50 tahun.. U all tahu kan, mereka ni da masuk golongan emas and extra-sensitive,please..do respect. They'll pray something good for you in return.

Sekadar renungan-Bhs kita suka label org ikot pangkat..macam kalau org tu datuk or kaya2 skit mula lah panggil beliau ke or (u-know-what-i-bet) and bla2, mcm beliau mula menjadi kaya seawal umur 22 tahun..tp kalau timur tengah mcm Jepun or Korea or aku tak tau la korg bg suggestion.. no discrimination (correct me if im wrong) diorg label manusia ikot senioriti..kalau org tua penggunaan bhs dia lebih sopan dan santun.haa..mcm tu! I think thats why some of our people still hold that narrow perspective. hey, x global and x cool ok! til then..Do respect, don't discriminate, be curteous!

Ell-Ow-Vee-Ee,

Syifa' U. aziz

and thats how u pronouce love =)

SUPER HOT!

Assalamualaikum and good day everyone! I just had my lunch..what about u guys? okie potong-potong actually lagi sekali saye mengepos adelah sbb nak cerite pasal satu makanan yang agak popular dekat Msia tetapi berasal dari Thailand. Mcm ala2 Tata Young goes internationally. WHATEVER!okie..anyhoo this food is known as Kerabu mangga so called salad mangga. berkhasiat yet pedas!

Is she hot?well.. Kerabu mangga lagi hot (bli kat kafe kolej saya kalau x caye)

Honestly today I thought I wanna eat healthy by eating rice instead of hari-hari makan apple pie, mmg stock up my body with fat. I pun beli kerabu nie kat cafe. just sbg precaution those yang tak tahan pedas jgn mkan. I was about to lose my deria rasa, lidah jadi kebas, kepala pun kebas, mulut tebal and panas, ohh super hot! xtau die pki cili ape but Im sure Gisele Buncheon would love to try this cuz she eats spicy food only.South Americano mmg!

So tomorrow I ll say, Im gonna stick to my own daily routine food, kerabu mangga (KM) bukan tak sedap but lain org lain citarasa btol kan? tapi mkn KM nie menyihatkan sbb die mengandungi karborhidrat yang rendah (good for all weight watchers out there),glukosa for energy,Vit A, B1, B2 dan C. InshaAllah ia juga dapat meredakan batuk (sbb Vit C content), menguatkan limpa,melancarkan peredaran darah dan meredakan sakit.. wait! one more, KM juga x dimasak.. eat it raw! kalau sushi korg boleh makan, nescaya KM is not impossible okie!

value added: selain dari KM, kerabu juga ada dlm btk kerabu sotong, kerabu pegaga etc. you all can browse it if korg suke okie!and log on here for the recipe! selamat mencuba dan memakan!!

EAT HEALTY TO BE HAPPY!

UNWANTED TRANSFORMATION

Again, I cannot re-sleep after gettin up for subuh. as usual when I cant sleep then I ll crap-talking :) 

Actually I think/am sure that I've transformed a bit-not-it's-a-lot! I mean, reached the 20's.. I ve changed physically and mentally too. to be honest I hate changing la.. maybe I can't get used to it yet..hope so. Physically change that I can detect of course, my teeth getting bigger that when I smile it can be soOOO notice-able and it damn hideous man! my bones pun membesar lately. that one of my friend said that, hey kalau aku tgk ko dari blakang..aku ingat ko nie lelaki rambut pjg.dem dem..

It makes me so awkward standing beside people with same chromosome. cuz I feel big and lebar! while they are tiny (they're normal, I am not!) And and yang paling dibenci oleh kaum hawa of course..my cheeks! chubbier pastu dulu if makan banyak senang turun. now makan sikit cepat naik! x seronok laaa!I admit my nature is that am a sweet tooth. so it's hard for me to restrain myself from eating those that can lead to diabetes. hope I could reduce it. and mentally transformation would be... I get more sensitive and emotional. ee! boringlahh! janji x sukee! if dulu I always take something easily but now seriously! x seronokkk! sbb mudah terasa even small stuff! to be honest, I'm just 21 going on 22! hope it's normal..please say those are normal! or maybe I am out-of norm!I prefer the robot me! rather than human with full of emotion. it's torturing and makes you think negatively (ya,about something particularly)

btw I really hate abg yang buat air kat cafe. I am not fussy, but I wish nextime I would stand up for myself. ade ke saye mintak nescafe ais dia buat teh ais. I just realize after i taste it. it's not even 1st time. before this I request for teh o limau. he gave teh o. Because I suke byr awl br ambil air, so maksudnye I pay more..la kan. teh tarik and teh o are cheaper than ape saye mintak. bukan nak sound cocky..but hey! every penny counts! stup*dnye! arahan tak dengar, buat kerja x fokus! u make me tanggung cost some more dah la saye x suka teh tarik and teh o! tu la..prasan hensem lagi!

I know berdosa mengata org and dia tak tau, but u know..as long as I didnt mention sape, xpe la.. x mengaibkan dia pun. and if sebut pun..bukan org knal . one day if die buat hal lagi, I would say this straight to his face..abg cafe, jgn asyik nak prasan hensem je,tp kja awk hampeh! abiskan duet aku je! and tekak aku jge!bye! tgk kan da kate..i am so sensitive..I need to have the old me back..syifa dulu meh la masuk balik!

okie, da ngntukk..nak tdo! BYE BYE BLACKSHIP!

SHE WOKE ME UP DAILY, DON'T NEED NO STARBUCKS ^^

LISTEN TO HIS BABY-ISH VOICE CAN MAKES ME SMILE THE WHOLE DAY :)

Those spoken words (not literally spoken la) are the sweetest :)

mcm mana nak ckp, i think i got head over heels kepada  justin bieber, i know, very-out-dated me! but susahla nak suke another blonde guy after aaron carter back when i was 13. but when i heard his song ( baby feat ludacris) i think i can forget my 1st blonde guy. hishh! sorry terpaksa meluahkan my crush towards him kat sini! my mom said, stop crapping adek! haha tp tak ada la crap kan..mama ckp jgn merepek..heee!

typically me! i thought those days akan gone once i grow up. my gosh bukan grow lagi. i think our age 7 years differ kot! haha! wish nadhirah were here. dpt la merepek same2! soorry piu!!! ni main2 je..jap lagi ilang la nie ..hehe

but again . i'd like to stress on some words yang really make me go auuu.. aaa.. heeee!! (in the song *baby*)

'And we would never ever, ever be apart' -ini very cute!!!


'I'll buy you anything'- this is very p.diddy-ish!
'I'll buy you any ring'


'Cause I'm in pieces'- no verdict just a reply! okayy justin! teee~
'Baby fix me'


'We're just friends,'  -what game is this?? cuz i kinda like it! :P
'What are you sayin''?


'You know you love me' 
'I know you care'- i just love the confidence! okie tipuu.. saye sukaaa sbb justin yang ckp!!


my heart can't stop pounding!!!! justin!

x kisahh kne juga tgk lagi satuu gmbr dieeee

heee! gmbar nie x boleh tdo mlm okie!justin...kak syifa suke sgtt!

CAN WE START ALL OVER AGAIN?LIKE YEAH..BACK AT 1..PLEASE?

Okie, dengan officiallynye I am no longer the hotdog seller. I thought today would be my last day, but again.. it has been cancelled. due to some mysterious reason ..haish..miss nak jual2! direct selling mmg annoying but best giler once u ve tried.

Sbnrnye mlm nie nak nag about my thesis. I semakin confuse la.. between mundel-fleming approach or absorption approach? mls nye nak buat research.. due date is just around the corner. honestly..my heart cannot stop pumping (alhamdullillah) but the speed..is quite..hmm.. SPEEDY! menyesal nak mam mam buat about fiscal financing punya hubungan dengan foreign exchange nie. x seronok..sanggat!

And today, I also have giving up. I'm gonna take TL form and bagi mr beloved Prof mansor to sign and approved my kelewatan to submit the thesis. sungguh menyampahkan! white flag,white flag... I hate this term..nape hang wujud?

So tomorrow I have to be very studious in order to finish suku thesis.. maybe re-edit some part before leaving UKM. sbb next week da study leave! maybe going back home but akan frequently balik UKM.

btw tadi I watched theatre with miss DD :) it was fine.. love the confidence! bagus lah 1st and 2nd year nie! way to go!

that pretty much about today and tonight. tomorrow is another story to be told :)

HNL's OFF!

SO LONG SINCE YOU BEEN MISSING

Lately my heart's pounding and lying.. I wonder why oh why.. it ain't lying..but it just keep denying.

I wish it is not true..but yeah it does..I miss you..and again it's a taboo

We are so outta reach. all left here are memories.. I wonder if you still regconize me.. I hope this feeling is temporary

why suddenly it appears again.. after years and years of misfortune story

ego ego, please do win this.. Pride is only my ultimate trader to this..

I wish I could label it ..I hope I could depend on it

sigh oh sigh..why oh why..

time oh time..can't I just pause and rewind?

I am not confuse, am abused by my un-static heart.

i just wish that I could sense you with my ears. or use my sense to sniff your presence 

or my eye sight to know you're standing there, or taste your favourite food again?

...............................................................................

thats all folks!


even sounds very unfinish.. thats all because of my main idea is to put some suspense flavour in it :)


naahh..i just hafta sleep early. tomorrow is not another same routine.

at least slightly diff :)

going to low yat with mama and abg.

spend spend time with both of em.

love love today and tomorrow :)

heart still not fully-rocovered.

Syifa' means penawar. But I can't even heal me. dewhdewhs

HeartNeverLies's signing off!

The perfect image of  resting. Relax, lay down and smile.

Have a great weekends though!

cheerioooo~!

P.S- I admit that i ve no sense of colour and very disorganize..especially when it comes to writing. can judge by the allignment. it's like EVERYWHERE! heehoohheehhoo!!

FULL AND UNHAPPY

Feeling full doesn't necessarily make u happy actually. I just finished stuffing food into my stomach but still I don't feel anything. Different than usual cause food has always been my fav subject of all! hurggh..again, I feel it, the sense of fear conquering every inch of my heart.*gulp*

I woke up this morning (sadly I don't feel like P.diddy) *sambung* with worries and gloominess. Counting the remaining days of me being here,as a UKM student. I may not be the perfect nerd-ish one but I think I did okay, overall.. yeah my performance macam acceptable juge lah , okie x malu for rating diri sendiri :D  Suddenly I kinda miss the atmosphere, the friends, the class, the fac, the ups and downs,  the trips, the fun, the sad, the fall and rise, the gossips, when i walk to the class with my fav baju kurung yang dah buruk, when I received a msg from friends asking 'where are you? kelas dah nak start" or "datang tak kelas?" .......my gosh! I love UKM. I love being a student! now I believe and apply the word *we will appreciate great things when it's gone* .dewhh

Now only 2 weeks left, and then I ll meet finals..and and whats next? UKM will set me free! apa nak buat, I can't hold that student title forever kan? I have to be independent. meet real people in  the real world. real people is nothing similar to the world I'm in right now. here are some of my view of real world @ people: Some's nice. some's mean, some's predictable, some's moody, some's judgemental, some's materialistic, some's cocky,some's optimistic, some's pessimistic, some likes us, some hates us and mcm2 some lagi! (just to make sure it rhymes!)

Being mere strong is not enough. We have to keep our mind open. If people tackles your leg and makes you fall on the ground, rise back with no regrets. laugh it off and start over but with new sheet of chapter :) Life is great, we got company, we are never alone, we have God to believe in, we have faith our family put in us, we have friends to lean on, we have money to spend, we have food to eat, we have water to drink and doing laundry, we have book to read, we have words to spell, we have phone to call, we have bus to ride and KL sentral to transit (WTF) & we have everything that we don't even know its existence!

It just the matter of time. clock is ticking, I'm still here, bila thesis nak bergerak ni wahai syifa'? tepuk dada tanya selera.

why am 1 so lazy? it's not even a question, it's a statement.
keep up seems the hardest part in my jungle of life right now.
pressure is okay, it makes/keeps me awake

Ya Almighty, help me through this journey.. lend me some strenght and smoothen my journey. Amin~


he grows beard,
why am 1 so weird,
is it because u've been fired?,
oh no! maybe because I'm tired.

UKM, dengan ini I ll be missing you ! eventhough I am not ready yet..but syifa! please grow up..tolonglah, tapi tang suara cheq tak taw nak wat lagu mana..so shut up!haha

actually there's a lot more to discard from my brain to this tiny pony blog.. but time is money man! gotta catch up with my nap-time  before going back to Gombak :) yes, Officially I have a place called home again! see you mamito and abg!

HNL's signing off!

P.S-I miss u Muizz zainuddin! balik copat skit..ponat den tggu ni aaa

BUAH TANGAN SEMALAM

Tajuk tu sebenarnye hanyelah rekaan semate2 dan lebih kepade rumusan ape yg hendak saye ceritekan:


Hari ini mcm biasa lepas kelas, selepas bye bye ella dan yna sbg tanda perpisahan kelas..saya akan jalan-jalan cari makan . Tadi dalam kelas sakit perot pulak (perlu kah nak cerita, perlu!) membuatkan saye lack of focus. tapi tak pe..saye akan topup ape yg saye tertinggal semasa hilang fokus tadi dengan membace (sah2 tipu)


Hari ini juge saye berharap luke di hati ini tidak berdarah balik (chewah2) sbb  smlm saye dah cukup gloomy woomy dah. yg pelik smlm saye x nangis. maybe kelenjar air mate telah berkarat kot..hehhe.. tp saye byk blame diri sendiri dan ketawe sorg2 (tp saye masih waras)


Actually, Saye sedey sbb saye pergi interview smlm. Saye rase saye telah memalukan diri sendiri, bukan sahaja saye tidak dapat amaze 3 interviewers dlm tu (2 malays + 1 italian) malah as the interviewee prestasi saye sgt ...okie, tak mo rate diri sendiri. saye telah bercakap terlalu pantas, soalan senang tp saye boleh lupe jwpn die, saye lupe nak tukar kasut yg saye bekal dlm plastic beg kuning and end up pakai sandle, hp berbunyi twice! dah la lagu drake, forever mine tu, saye terlalu honest bile mereka bertanye mengenai minat saye and and and ini adelah my very 1st time to go for a formal interview like this.
:: maybe 1 st timer kot.. (saye asyik ckp mcm nie sbb saye nak pujuk diri saye yg terlalu frust dgn diri sendiri)


Mcm2 buku (okie fine, majalah!) dah saye baca utk menghilangkan renggangan2 di hati, urat kepala leher dan senak di perut  namun HEART NEVER LIES. membuatkan saye masih teringat kejadian smlm dan ia masih cantik berbekas di hati saye. Walaupun interviewer itu ada memberi pujian (sket je!) namun ia tidak dapat OFFSET @ pampas ape yg saye mess-up. 


Pesanan umum-kalau nak pergi interview jgn pki sandle, pki kasut trus, jgn lupe fakta2 yg simple hanya kerana anda da knal SPSS tu ape, jgn ckp laju sgt, NEVER LET YOUR NERVOUSNESS SHOWS dan ape yg penting your personality. Let it shine okie!


Before menamatkan bebelan panjang ini, ada satu quote yang telah menjadi plaster kepada hati saye yang smlm pendarahannye x nak berhenti.. iaitu . . .


setiap kali anda berasa tertekan, tarik nafas sedalamnya dan katakan pada diri ala2 monologue:

"Hidup adalah perjalanan untuk anda nikmati kembaranya pada setiap langkah anda"

maksudnye: Hidup ibarat Makan. Sometimes food could tastes so delicious.. it suits your appetite.. etc but somehow in the middle of nowhere, the chef forgot to include the secret recipe in it, and the food isn't yummie as it used to be. But as an eater we have to enjoy every bit of the bite. sbb rugi lah duit keluar tp x enjoy kan. -Syifa U. aziz, 2010


Sebenarnye having blog bukan semate2 untuk sharing thoughts or story or bragging (hahah) but sebenarnya ia untuk kite excersize our right brain iaitu slot kreatif brain anda. kita akan menyedari kepentingannya setelah kita menjangkau usia 50 tahun ke ats. physically and mentally fit! isn't that hot? ahuh!


last but not least, live a happy life to be healthy! (awet mude as a bonus) at least young at heart pun okie juga.. cheerio!~

LIFE'S A RIDDLE, I'M TIRED OF GUESSING

I don't know how to elaborate this. But my current feeling has been in this position for quiet some time. I'm not good at guessing. Sometimes what I thought will happen, will never happen. And sometimes might.. But it just happen once in a blue moon. Couldn't agree more if some people say that I own a weak instinct. Everything is unreacheable. My thoughts, My plan, My dreams, Hopes and Fears. When they collide, I thought they will unite as one,  But I never thought of something else. Fate Or Plan. A Riddle I can't solve.