SIMM UOY OS HCUM

Meroyan di petang hari dan sebelum pergi kerja *larrriii~*as usual aktiviti rasmi setiap hari adalah online dan terpanggil untuk mencoret di ruang sesawang ini. Today I don't wanna be deep or what, just go straight to the point.. - . - hurmm.. hurmm.. immaturity masih strong di dalam diri memaksa diri ku menjadi lemah kembali.. Dear mama/mamito/meehun/madam! again..today I miss you..in fact everyday.. urghh! When u miss someone endlessly like this..U feel like...shouting cuz sumpah it hurts so bad .How I wish I became emotionless..so I could defeat this thing..Oh no no no..emosi terluke serta minda yang diharapkan untuk memotivasikan diri.. one question..sampai bila?.......tet

Missing u mama,
The crying immature one!
SHIP-PHA

P.S-sorry to annoy readers with repetitive subject of posting.. *waving poisely*

SOMETHING THAT JUST NOT WRITTEN IN THE SKY

Tomorrow I will work in the morning. Hope the day will be nice and smooth as it could get. 

::Dealing with customer or to be exact P.EOPLE is not as easy as I thought. Some strangers come towards you and yell.. because of something you never did.. or sometimes you don't even know the answer or how to solve the matter..beyond your expertise, smile all along.. forget your temper.. please them with good reasonable appropriately arranged words, hye! welcome to customer services. 

When you get sick or at least having a little flu, you will pray that you heal faster, not to entertain the feeling of being sick..why oh why? cuz you can't never sneeze while talking to customer or attending them with watery eyes/nose and even nosey voice is not allowed. You have to be presentable, efficient, proactive and always wear your smile :) now that sounds so fairytale! but it's so true..forget your tiredness.. Your physical and mental have to be fit! part of your job! and plus, you always have to know what to say.. of course...APPROPRIATELY!

Their problems are your jobs! When they forgot to collect things from the bus, defected toilet, passenger miss the bus, bus service fail to meet customer's satisfaction, routing, public transport, parking, elevator, student comes for research..omg! sounds so much for (JUST) external customer...what about internal ones? samee!always ensure they got the equality of services and have to please them all the time.. NO no don't get me wrong, this isn't about nagging of my job or whatt... Like can't you see..How blessing this job is? assisting OKU to buy bus ticket, entertain senior citizen (from simple chatting until assisting them to board the bus), be the map of lost foreigner, help a pregnant woman to bring their heavy bags..like...

OMAIGOSH! I am so happy Ya Almighty!I work and I get tired but I feel blessed and happy..just by receiving a simple thanks from customer..superb satisfaction! Entertaining big bosses, Press and media, foreigner, mental disorder guy (yes, i did), Government, business man, senior citizen, MALAYSIAN, pregnant woman and many many more..trust me! it helps me develop myself beautifully..even my BP is getting higher..but..I'm chill with that :) In one day, I would've met like ..EVERYONE!

Service industry is undoubtedly tiring, your weekends are our weekdays..when you're sleeping, we just started our shift, When you are enjoying the amenities in the building, we are busy to keep the facilities in a good condition.. But everyday is a reward to us.. Cuz your satisfaction is our achievement. Thanks to the crowd for being my remedy! ::

Tan Sri Hamid said, work is your ibadah. I agree!

Bitterheart or sweetheart?

Coincidently met my long lost friend yesterday..Wasn't that "lost" anyway, it just that we haven't seen each other for quite some time. Ironically I was working, but gladly almost reach its time to go back. So, I spent some time talking to her but working at the same time. Can u imagine how? please...just don't ^^ Talking to her made me swim back to the past. Because she is..someone from my past.. My heart was pumping with anger, I can't believe what I heard from her. I won't expose what conversation we've had but just to share some point of view of life, sometimes.. Don't bother about whatever others feel towards your action, cuz sometimes when we are too busy thinking about others' happiness,eventually we always realized the fact that we cannot please the whole world! There's no use torturing your heart and mind for some people who doesn't know whether you have ones by treating you like a robot, and don't take you seriously. Make life even simpler & don't complicate things, make it stable by what you received, you'd give back. Ok darling? take out the person/things in your life that contribute to your imperfections, let your life goes with your rhythm. By how u want it to be alright.. Life is so hard at 1st, especially when you just crashed into pieces after a big breakdown or something similar, but once you completed the healing process, you'll gain both.. happiness and strength!..& The next time you see misery, you don't sweat a lot like you used to.. :)

Yours Truly,

Voice within

Getting used to ..YOU!

Today is my off-day. NO no no, I'm not going out or loitering around even my hot-blood rebelling to do so, so so much but there are a lot of other MAJOR things that need to be settled..especially bills, bills and bills.  Everytime I check the post box, my hands will be shaking cuz I am afraid I might not be able to settle all the bills on time. What if they cut the electricity and water supply. Or take away my astro! and and who's gonna remind me to pay PTPTN. Working on shift-based  schedule makes it hard for me to steal time to get all these 'mess-head' done. I don't have any idea how my mom did all of these to-do-list!(s) My dad passed away when I was like 7 months..So practically she had been single parent since like forever. I swear! I don't know where she gained that strength! Now what I gotta do..is getting used to this and don't over-used em..or else, I shall pay more..NNOOO! this story has exclude groceries, food supply, transport fares and pocket money and yes..ETC .Mom, this is wow! :) teehee

What doesn't kill makes you stronger..and u know what bills?? U can't kill me! bwek!

Regards,

THE CAPITAL SYIFA'

Perit

Mama adik nangis lagi hari ini. Adik x dpt tahan kesedihan when I am at home alone. Adik teringatkan mama. Tgk susunan dalam rumah ni buat adik teringat how rajin you were bila kemas rumah. Bila adik balik je mesti mama tanya pendapat adik kan ma? Mama adik teringatkan masa adik teman mama gi Medical Centre dekat GMC haritu. Bulan lepas kan mama. Mama batuk2 banyak sgt and mengadu kat adik. Tapi at the same time mama boleh lagi wat lawak and gelak2. Sorry mama sbb adik salu moody kat mama. Jahat adik ni. Tapi mama tahu tak mama dalam dunia ni mama adalah buah hati adik, mamalah my princess, mamalah wanita paling hot sekali. Mama je yang dapat buat hati perit adik sembuh. mama is my syifa'. mama sorry sgt masa mama sakit haritu adik x dpt buat apa2 sembuhkan mama. walaupun nama adik syifa'. sorry mama. sorry mama. Ma, adik x sempat nak blikan jam untuk mama. adik pernah hilangkan 2 jam mama. tapi mama x marah pun ma. Mama ingat tak masa mama teman adik bli air kat coffee box, mama tunggu dlm kereta. Tapi masa tu coffee box tu lambat bagi air adik, mama worry sampai mama keluar cari adik  and mama lupa lock kereta. Mama tanya org kat 7 eleven sume..mama tahu tak sampai sekarang adik terharu sgt. Mama salu panggil adik baby girl mama tapi sekarang mama buat adik miss panggilan tu mama. sbb skarang x ada org pun panggil adik camtu or panggil adik ni atek. Mama adik betul2 rindu mama..mama dtgla dalam mimpi adik salu..please ma..nak dgr suara mama

every tears belong to you

Part of my routine, everyday, is to keep myself preoccupied.. make myself busy and stuff my days with friends and loved ones because by knowing this term '‎"Our character is what we do when no one is looking."  I might collapsed and breakdown. I am thankful to have such a supportive and understanding people around me which never fail to keep me 'alive'. At this time, I can't never be on my own..Myself is the worse companion ever. 

I never put high hope on something only for one thing, which was to see my mom woke up and to hear her voice again..that time. But I never question Allah's fate to take HIS creation,it is part of life's cycle. Redha was the only way to accept death, by pronouncing prayers ushering my princess to the other world aka Alam Barzakh. I obey Ya Almighty. 

Even until today, I still feel that she was around me and waited for me to update my journey to work. For me texting her everytime I reached office,on my way home from work til i reach home, going out, everytime I felt sad, when I miss her, gossips and many other things! could someone tell me how can I hear her voice again cuz I don't want to forget her wonder-extraordinary voice when she called me.. could someone hugged me like she did..could someone comfort me like she did and could someone amused me like her jokes, could someone?

Everyday, continuously,I miss her.It hurts so bad. what would you feel when your home is the last place you wanted to be? home used to be like heaven but now it just reminds you of everything you deny to remember. Ya Allah cekalkan hambaMu ini, make me immune to this, help me through this, blessed me everyday by blessing her soul.. put her in YOUR lists of PARA SHUHADA'. Same goes to my father. I love them both and to my brother.. lets continue this until we meet mama and papa again. I love you so much. Take care and be safe alright. 

Sincerely,
Syifaaziz

Hajjah Rohana @ Rohanah Ibrahim, She's a super duper mom!

As I walked through the pavement at level 3..HKL, I could hear my stepping shoes taking turn to sound.. But my mind, elsewhere. I couldn't bear the news I heard at 7 something PM on Thursday..I've lost myself on that day, When she lied down-unmoved, stiff with pale face on the patients' bed.  She had 30 mins to live, Thats what doc predicted at that time, half-sanity I was trying to strenghten myself, tried to ignore..Out of my control, I cried and whispered KALIMAH SYAHADAH in her ears. Together with my brother, we jogged slowly along with doc and crew to level 3..ICU. at ICU, we waited for hours, finally door opened for us with welcoming ceremony done by the doc incharged. Doc told us the chronology and all, Frustrated but grateful Alhamdullillah, Allah still let her live even now she couldn't move, couldn't talk yet eat, couldn't do anything but I'm happy that everyday she gives a LITTLE progress. Even A LITTLE but I know someday, she'll be back to be our mom again. To whoever read this please contribute Yassin to her, Puan Rohana Ibrahim. Your cooperation has indeed a good return..from Allah. I love you mom, as simple as that!You're awesome, cuz you tought me to be strong and positive like you!

Is love smart?

Dear Youaretheonlyexception,
[  ]It is when, all your senses get so excited..

[  ]It is maybe when your mood is fixed by itself when you see him.. and yeah without the assistance of chocs of course

[  ] He makes you feel so alive.. yet dead..makes u feel like you are the most beautiful lady on earth..and makes you think you are the most intelligent nerd in the universe..no? 

[  ] When you pronounce those 3 sacred little words..and you never think of what circumstances you'd have to face..because it never matters

[  ]When you miss him, you wish he would just appear in front of you..and still.. never stop hoping

[  ]Love is sweet but most of the time..challenging.. adventurous!

[  ]Makes you so happy, makes you so so sad.. so?

[  ]Love is beneficial?- taking risks, enhance confidence level, learn to be patient, give and take, gratitude,positivity etc.. love is smart? or falling in love is actually smart..?

Now think the other way around....

Love, if you have it..you don't need anything else

and if you don't have it..it doesn't matter much what else you have 

Thatsallbyefornow!

THE TWENTY-11

DEAR TWENTY-11,

Your presence in my life tomorrow will be remembered as a new beginning of something new,

Why not if you just make me happy and being nice to me by giving me less probs,

And pleaseeee help me by erasing some hurtful memories,

But yeah, do keep some as I cannot move on with life without em....

Welcome 20-eleven ,bye-bye twenty-10!

Regards,

Syifa, 

So-Last-Year

COOLER THAN ME

Ok! Nicole Sherzinger memang nampak so deliciously tempting dlm music video heartbeat with Enrique Iglesias jejaka bunga!but thats not the point..the point is TBS will be operating this jan! Alhamdullillah..after 2months of training.. finally... my boss once said to me, bila terminal ni dah start operate..syifa u akan balik 10 mlm mcm tu, jgn harap balik tepat pukul 6 ya..nak2 ia akan beroperasi 24 hours. awl2 terkejut cuak semua ade, but actually I found it very challenging!so I gotta embrace it with style!experience bahh.. oh oh nak mengadu, I naik public tranport utk ke opis, I geram betul bila org tak pandai main lane kiri and kanan (STRICTLY FOR PEDESTRIAN ONLY)..especially escalator. I nak kejar masa ok! so bila dekat eskalator, for those yang tak join marathon pagi tolong2 la ke kiri.. bagi la lane kanan tu lancar.  so sempat lah I makan karipap besar RM 1 n pekena nescafe tarik kat opis. Ni x pasal2 I lambat sebab ada beberapa makhluk2 Allah yg suka berjalan pesen kura2 and block jalan.. please..I jenis memahami, pagi2 memang otak kita slow..so jalan pun ala2 catwalk..but utk opis yang jauh mcm kami.. kteorg dah kena maximize our speed ok! so peringatan utk semua termasuk I!ikutlah peraturan pejalan kaki..yang nak jalan lambat bagi lah jalan kepada pejalan cepat. sekian :) world peace!

Bila Esok Datang Lagi...

Today is the second day.. I'm afraid I might collapsed. Will I be able to hold my strength and keep my perseverance to endure this journey or should I just declare and put my hands up saying this is ain't what I'm looking for, ain't my calling. 

 

Intermission: Ini lah fav saye kat opis! perisa original and vanilla are the bomb!

Blaming other people or being irresponsible are becoming a trend now. Whatever it is, I just hate the trendsetter!

Life as in metaphore

"If life is only a riddle...we will find the answer once we solve the riddle
Once we solve the riddle, we'll get the answer and complete the riddle
The Search stops, We'll find another riddle to solve.."

Assumption:

*riddle is our normal daily probs

life is a riddle*

Something's wrong here.. because in reality, We don't even know when we can find the solution of our problem though..and the search is always continue and continue.. We don't find a riddle to solve, instead the riddle comes to us for us to solve.. Get it? urrgh..sorry another crap for another boring wednesday :) 

Just to update something: I just bought a cool flip flop and it's pink ! tu jer..toodles~

Ade lagi2, I think our economics' condition is not stable..mcm meng-heading ke arah inflation..so to all, take this precaution.. berbelanjalah sehemah-hemahnya ok! maybe perang dingin antara Both Korea telah mule memberi effect kpd dunia..tet! betul2 toodles~

Buhbyes!

Hello Everything!

cuz baby you're a firework, come on let your colours burst!

I stole this from katy perry's new song, firework. It really captivates my attention as it has a quite big impact in motivating me. So whenever u feel inferior, demotivated, or any other negativities remember these words and try to comprehend while exploring the colours in you ok? oh! btw actually this is not the  spotlight of this post, my real intention is to give a short summary about my life/feeling/view in recent. To be honest, I'll say I might miss a lot of updates here as I've been away for so long. Recently, I've been through a few transformation. Some are hurtful, some are...what I can call as Blessing from God. To be frank, I'll be thankful to God if I made mistakes or vice versa, cuz whatever result may I face is a life lesson that will be my map in the future apart from making me stronger and much much wiser. I just wish I could stay positive like this forever or maybe when forever is over, I just wish I would continue....... 

Sometimes being a decision maker is not hard, but most of the time.. yes! especially when it has too many good choices to offer. ARE YOU REGRET? this is not even a question kan? So what is it..? to me it is just a confirmation. 

before I end this..maybe you can start to make the crowd go oh oh :)

toodios!

GRINS

It's been awhile since I keep my mouth/head/hands shut off this blog. I still love telling stories but lately I must admit I've been such a bad writer. Due to the busy schedule of working and the extension of sleeping hours. So, I spend less hour in cyber world. So here I am again to give some updates about what happen recently in my life.

-I am so happy with work. I've got a lot of awesome/caring/happy-go-lucky friends. even I've lost one (in working place) but sue darling, ure always have a place in my heart :) goodluck in ur future undertakings

-as for other things, I can't elaborate here. It's too hard to explain. I don't like to play around. So take me seriously *tiba2 kan*

-Seriously need to do the S.O.P cepat2 as the due date is just around the corner. I love thinking but to do the typing, I need a typewriter! as a pioneer for the terminal we have to come up with our own fresh ideas. excites me!

-I hope Allah will grant my wishes and smoothen my journey. I'm so sorry for being such a bad slave. I know I am not good enough to ask anything from U.

-I miss my mom! And I got a news for her!

;D

thats all folks! have a nice day!

my journey is not written to be yours

Something is missing. I just hope that I ll get my spirit back. Life is complicated at this time. But I'm sure and I know I'll get through.

yours sincerely,
Syifa Aziz

HEELS WITH ME!

Hye!update ringkas! Saye kini telah memasuki new phase of my life atau lebih tepat lagi, telah memasuki tempoh pra-matang dlm hidup saye. Alhamdullillah, After completing my degree in International Economics for 3 years in UKM I finally got appointed as a customer service Executive by Maju holdings. I will work at TBS (Terminal Bersepadu Selatan) at Bandar Tasik Selatan. InshaAllah this terminal will operate by this month. Yesterday was a pre-launch by minister, Datuk Seri Nazri Aziz and on the 17th if im not mistaken, PM himself will officiate the building! best gak tgk launching melibatkan org2 besar/VVIP nie. I learned about protocols walaupun x byk. Tapi yg bestnye, I am so proud of working with the 1st bus terminal yg high-tech mcm nie! terminal pun dah mcm airport dah! bayangkan ade 6 levels, 55 bus platforms, 1800 seats, 55 ruang tempat taxi for long distance and 1000 tempat parking! and yg paling saye suke, ia bersifat mesra OKU! so at ITT, OKU is provided with many facilities. Saye juge sbg seorg CS di situ is willing to serve my bestest best to give our customer a maximum satisfaction! So jgn panik if was-was nak beli ticket or tak jumpe toilet or many2 more masalah boleh dtg ke pejabat CS yg berada di tingkat 2. okie itu shj serba sedikit about ape yg berlaku recently. OH oh tadi kami telah diberi training mengenai bagaimana utk mengendalikan mesin jualan ticket di sana. Very friendly-user. ala2 facebook je! yg best part is, customer sendiri boleh buat tempahan ticket sendiri melalui kaunter ticket (POS-point of selling), kiosk ticket atau secara online. Banyak pilihan kan? ape2 pun do visit the terminal once it officially operate in order to explore and experience ape yg  I merepek nie okie! ;P toodioos! 

ITT-TBS

You'll Always Find A way Back Home!

Alhamdullillah~ This week has been so great as it filled with some wonderful stories! Last week was totally cacat for me. Please refer to the previous entry for reference. It tells perfectly, ain't it? so let me begin my journey for this week.. Thoroughly! jump to the next point!

• My big bro is in town! Even for awhile but I feel like it's not palely wasted like before.We spent so much time and do things together. I've joined a business with him and what can I say, it's profitable (for hardworking-practitioner) and educational. The best part is, anyone can join! even kau bukan anak Datuk Hamid! wow kan?
• Then then.. I went for an interview with one company (Tibe2 P&C ape cer beb) and I got hired. Alhamdullillah~ I feel so grateful and excited! It's not easy to get a job. I was jobless for almost 5 months. kalau mengandung, perut pun dah besar. The best part is, the job suits me well.The keys are never give up and believe in the power of berdoa. Insha Allah..
• This is sooo my personal fav! my bro and two of our friends (Wan & Tasya) go balik kampung with us. The journey took about 5-6 hours. We set up a rule that no one can sleep. To make it fair. So in order to kill the sleepiness, we turned on the music loudly and start singing. The cool part is, it was a CD that full of Bieber's song.Add-info: My hometown never puts me down, always outreach my expectations!
• My bro and I went ziarah all over Kelantan. Best giler!I learned about Kelantanese a lot. Such as the culture and bahasa. Not to forget the food! The best part is We have the chance to meet our family back there. We haven't met for so long. like 5 years! It's like now, I have more hormones compare to the last trip!=D
• I feel dihargai. They treat us very well. I miss my Kelantan-side family actually. I hope we can still bonding well even time has puts gap on us.  Some of my cousins are really smart! they do make me proud. 
• Last but not least, I'm grateful to be given this opportunity by Allah Maha Besar. Great things happen for those who wait. I always comfort myself with this quote. I know it is actually can be true!
• Seriously need to put off weight. Balik kampung2x -__-

Before signing off: I'm so excited yet nervous for this 1st oct. I hope everything will be fine and go smoothly. Please.. make me love my job.. please 100x. amin~ kissing off! DaaAaa~

The hatred day!

Today is the H-day for me after mengalami kemarahan terkumpul sejak beberapa tahun/bulan/hari yang lepas! I seldom post entry yang melibatkan marah and marah. But today I don't care what'll happen saye nak post juge! Step yang pertame untuk meraikan perasaan marah/sugul ini ialah dengan mentaip besar-besar ape yang saye benci and jerit dalam hati sekuat-kuatnye sbb you don't wanna awake your brother yang letih. Nanti kena marah. So step one activated,  I hate ORANG YANG PILIH BULU! they just put me on my nerve. If tumbuk orang is legal I will punch this kinda person straight on their plastic faces! I know it wouldn't hurt much cuz they come from special materials which is PLASTIC! Kadang-kadang orang macam ni bukan kacau orang lain pun but their annoyance tu sangat mengganggu! and menambah-nambah dosa manusia yang tak sekutu ngan diorg ni. THEY MAKE ME WANNA CURSE BAD WORDS.I mean REALLY-REALLY BAD! Tell this people what, people comes in various packages. Just accept them the way they are la! I mean like in-born traits. Kalau 'junkies' kau tak nak pun tak pe. I understand. Sila lah berubah. As a friend, terase wor bila lu cari gua when ade something je. Bila takde, balas wallpost susah. (memang nak bagi hint pun). kalau msg tu saye phm la awk kedekut ke abis cdt kan? To me you're not even a friend pun and not qualified to be one!I just hope these people'll change la. Your idiotic in Public Relations got my concern and sympathy. If you don't wanna change ke ape, tak pe thats hak asasi. Just don't appear in front of my eyes and disappear from my life okie. PEACE ^^

P.S-WHY LA DO U EVEN EXIST *Sigh*

AMAZING-RAYA

Hye hye hello hello bye bye! finally I started bermonologue again. Jarang-jarang berlaku nowadays. Actually, It feels much much better to have this inner voice while writing/posting. To cut it short (tibe-tibe kan) actually today I have no story, admirations or tips to share just another pale post sempena Syawal a.k.a Lebaran. The last post I said I wasn't feel any excitement kan? but it happened the other way around now. I was surprised myself too! I quite enjoy this Raya even angpau makin in tenat situation. But I'm glad, that I'm still alive and be able to eat rendang, to share laughters with my mom and performed Eid-ul Fitr Prayers. I pick a random theme for raya tahun ini called 'Amazing-Raya'.  Everything is going well and pretty til today :) I also managed to go beraya to several houses even though my aunty and uncle aren't here (they beraya di Mekah). I try to make a full use of this hols before I really2 start working. Oh dear, I can't imagine my life in KL as soon as I landed there. Being a grownup giving me so much ache in the head. Eventhough I have the power to control my life, but still.. power doesn't guarantee u a happiness.. well well!

"Ya Allah, smoothen my journey, protect and guide me to the right path. Amin"~ ok Raya ke 4! can't wait for u! =D

Love,

Syif

MISS(ING)

I don't feel any excitement for the coming Hari Raya. What I know is, Syawal is coming 

& Ramadhan is leaving.

I miss the old times,

Time just wont let me be 14 again